i'm ngl it bothers me that paula still has to bow her head and beg if she wants to protect her sister, her only family. she doesn't have the authority to decide anything and all these nobles seem to be very comfortable leaving her in that position so that they can feel generous for every wish they grant her. like, they say that they like her and all but they've never really interacted with her as people on the same level. she always obviously put herself below them. even when she was bold and defiant, she never truly forgot "her place" as a "mere maid". and it seems like that makes them feel safe and even amused at times. i just want to know how they'd treat a paula with more self-esteem. a paula who gives orders without apologizing or asking for permission. would they allow that? or do they think she should know her place even after saying that they love her or that they're friends? it kinda feels like they only want her to have self-esteem if it's granted by them. anyway, i love paula and i just want her to be happy. i honestly don't think anyone in this story deserves her. i guess lucas did. oh lucas...
i'm ngl it bothers me that paula still has to bow her head and beg if she wants to protect her sister, her only family. she doesn't have the authority to decide anything and all these nobles seem to be very comfortable leaving her in that position so that they can feel generous for every wish they grant her. like, they say that they like her and all but they've never really interacted with her as people on the same level. she always obviously put herself below them. even when she was bold and defiant, she never truly forgot "her place" as a "mere maid". and it seems like that makes them feel safe and even amused at times. i just want to know how they'd treat a paula with more self-esteem. a paula who gives orders without apologizing or asking for permission. would they allow that? or do they think she should know her place even after saying that they love her or that they're friends? it kinda feels like they only want her to have self-esteem if it's granted by them. anyway, i love paula and i just want her to be happy. i honestly don't think anyone in this story deserves her. i guess lucas did. oh lucas...