I’ve read Payback once every year since 2023, here I am on my 4th read and thinking back on how much I’ve changed since brings me to tears. Struggling with my own suicidal thoughts since I was 10, ever since Yohan’s suicide scene he grew to be one of the biggest symbols of resilience in my life. Jay and Yohan’s relationship shouldn’t be healthy, but for someone who needs to be given purpose, Jay’s approach can be the most comforting motivation to continue on living. It’s fairytale-ish, but I hope to meet a Jay of my own. I can’t wait to read this again next year, thank you Payback for giving me crumbs of a purpose.
I’ve read Payback once every year since 2023, here I am on my 4th read and thinking back on how much I’ve changed since brings me to tears. Struggling with my own suicidal thoughts since I was 10, ever since Yohan’s suicide scene he grew to be one of the biggest symbols of resilience in my life. Jay and Yohan’s relationship shouldn’t be healthy, but for someone who needs to be given purpose, Jay’s approach can be the most comforting motivation to continue on living. It’s fairytale-ish, but I hope to meet a Jay of my own. I can’t wait to read this again next year, thank you Payback for giving me crumbs of a purpose.