I really can't stop thinking about them. Woojin's emotions and experiences are so well captured, he makes my heart ache. And all of his expectations of Itae, all of the things he knows he shouldn't wish for, he's settling for anything he can get, because he's happy as long as he's a part of Itae's life, as long as he has his attention for a little while. He's such a sad character. To top it all off, I think the most devastating thing for me is his struggles with self pleasure. He said he was a non participant in pleasure, just because he doesn't think he deserves it, that it's not his to have. So when he feels such pleasure with Itae it makes him conflicted and scared of wanting more.
I also wanted to talk about Itae's obsession with Woojin. His reliance on Woojin's presence, and the way everything for him revolves around Woojin, but he doesn't realize that it's not normal. It's not normal how he feels for him, and his obsession is not the kind you would have for a friend. Both Woojin and Itae fail to recognize that. Woojin is under the assumption that Itae is carefree, spending fleeting time with him in the moment because it feels good. And Woojin is too greedy for his love, for his affection, he knows he shouldn't but he falls right back into him. Meanwhile, Itae doesn't really consider anything outside of Woojin. He likes what Woojin likes, he wants what Woojin wants, he wants Woojin. He needs him, he doesn't want to imagine being without him.
Well. Just had to get that out cause they Highk make me fucking sick to my stomach icel
I really can't stop thinking about them. Woojin's emotions and experiences are so well captured, he makes my heart ache. And all of his expectations of Itae, all of the things he knows he shouldn't wish for, he's settling for anything he can get, because he's happy as long as he's a part of Itae's life, as long as he has his attention for a little while. He's such a sad character. To top it all off, I think the most devastating thing for me is his struggles with self pleasure. He said he was a non participant in pleasure, just because he doesn't think he deserves it, that it's not his to have. So when he feels such pleasure with Itae it makes him conflicted and scared of wanting more.
I also wanted to talk about Itae's obsession with Woojin. His reliance on Woojin's presence, and the way everything for him revolves around Woojin, but he doesn't realize that it's not normal. It's not normal how he feels for him, and his obsession is not the kind you would have for a friend. Both Woojin and Itae fail to recognize that. Woojin is under the assumption that Itae is carefree, spending fleeting time with him in the moment because it feels good. And Woojin is too greedy for his love, for his affection, he knows he shouldn't but he falls right back into him. Meanwhile, Itae doesn't really consider anything outside of Woojin. He likes what Woojin likes, he wants what Woojin wants, he wants Woojin. He needs him, he doesn't want to imagine being without him.
Well. Just had to get that out cause they Highk make me fucking sick to my stomach icel