The lore for Gozu was exactly what I was expecting, yet it still broke my heart; Especially given the many times Gozu had been physically and mentally broke over the course of this story and especially during intimacy when Eve was very intentional and purposefully would go slow, not rush and make love to him and refused any forms or types of actions if Gozu didn't give consent or was using it as an exchange. The one sentence that Gozu says in chapter 126, "When has my own life become precious?" shows how much he has grown. I love how, when you look back as readers, you can slowly start seeing the cracks in him, yet he was completely clueless. We as readers have always been given some form of internal monologue, yet in moments like this, it still feels very much like we're the outsiders looking in. Chapter 126 also did a great job of referencing the answers to the internal questions he began to ask himself in chpts 45, 49, 90, and definitely the latest chapters of 148- 153, which goes hand in hand along with how confused he the "boring" sex was feeling good & the chapter where he was freaking out bcus his body was has a natural orgasm in a very natural way but bcus it wasn't in his" regular sex" way which is full of him being overly hypersexual due to his various amounts of trauma warranted the reaction of when he talks about himself I'm a very derogatory way bcus that was one of his many coping mechanism
The lore for Gozu was exactly what I was expecting, yet it still broke my heart; Especially given the many times Gozu had been physically and mentally broke over the course of this story and especially during intimacy when Eve was very intentional and purposefully would go slow, not rush and make love to him and refused any forms or types of actions if Gozu didn't give consent or was using it as an exchange. The one sentence that Gozu says in chapter 126, "When has my own life become precious?" shows how much he has grown. I love how, when you look back as readers, you can slowly start seeing the cracks in him, yet he was completely clueless. We as readers have always been given some form of internal monologue, yet in moments like this, it still feels very much like we're the outsiders looking in. Chapter 126 also did a great job of referencing the answers to the internal questions he began to ask himself in chpts 45, 49, 90, and definitely the latest chapters of 148- 153, which goes hand in hand along with how confused he the "boring" sex was feeling good & the chapter where he was freaking out bcus his body was has a natural orgasm in a very natural way but bcus it wasn't in his" regular sex" way which is full of him being overly hypersexual due to his various amounts of trauma warranted the reaction of when he talks about himself I'm a very derogatory way bcus that was one of his many coping mechanism