Tennessee imagines people he cares about (especially amber) dead bc it's comforting, it's his defense mechanism. if he imagine them dead over time it soften the blow of their actual death like what happened with his friends rick and the other woman two chapters ago . so basically him imagining amber dead is bc he's scared of losing him . as for amber he's so obsessed with Tennessee that he wants to kill him to prevent him from possibly leaving him that was talked about before. and now amber is scared of " death " , since he lost his memories he considered himself someone different than the old amber . so to him regaining his memories is dying bc he'll be "another person" not your fault for not understanding btw the translation is so shitty i only got it bc I'm so deep into psychology and have masters degree in English lolol
Tennessee imagines people he cares about (especially amber) dead bc it's comforting, it's his defense mechanism. if he imagine them dead over time it soften the blow of their actual death like what happened with his friends rick and the other woman two chapters ago . so basically him imagining amber dead is bc he's scared of losing him . as for amber he's so obsessed with Tennessee that he wants to kill him to prevent him from possibly leaving him that was talked about before. and now amber is scared of " death " , since he lost his memories he considered himself someone different than the old amber . so to him regaining his memories is dying bc he'll be "another person"
not your fault for not understanding btw the translation is so shitty i only got it bc I'm so deep into psychology and have masters degree in English lolol