taeui realized that at this point, xinlu didn't really want to have him, but rather the satisfaction of seeing ilay hurt. xinlu really only wanted to see the look on ilay's face as if he had just lost something he dearly desired (which he had in a previous chapter) ( ᴗˬᴗ)
Wait what does taeui mean by that last line? What came true for xinlu? I've read raga don't spoil me further than that please