I give up searching and still wish I had my old list of saved yaoi/bl(s) but anyways it's a yaoi where the mc may have been reborn as a character that died by the ml i think (pretty sure reborn in a novel.. Idk). It's a colorless yaoi and I remember the ml already had a male wife with long hair, yet the ml instead obsessed over the mc and only has sex with him instead of killing or ignoring him. That's all I can remember and goggling it doesn't help!（/TДT)/
I give up searching and still wish I had my old list of saved yaoi/bl(s) but anyways it's a yaoi where the mc may have been reborn as a character that died by the ml i think (pretty sure reborn in a novel.. Idk). It's a colorless yaoi and I remember the ml already had a male wife with long hair, yet the ml instead obsessed over the mc and only has sex with him instead of killing or ignoring him. That's all I can remember and goggling it doesn't help!（/TДT)/