All the SAs and non-concensual acts aside. Mido really is the embodiment of the abused becoming the abuser. Having to live your life in survival mode at a very young age especially in an environment that is so against your whole being can do so much in altering your brain chemistry. Not saying that Mido’s indecent acts towards Jichan is justified but rather to accept the fact that the characters are very nuanced and complex. I'd also like to point out how much I love the idea of Jichan still choosing what he wants to do out of his own volition. Really portrays how every victim's choices and the reason behind those choices are non-linear. I also love how Mido is shown to have an intricate way of thinking. The way he goes back and forth from his revenge and/or wanting to fall for Jichan’s promises again. At the end of the day, what drives both Jichan and Mido’s motives lies on the very fact that they are both intertwined with each other. As per Hyeon’s dialogue “those two can never be separated”. Also, we only got a short glimpse of what Eugene was like but she's the GOAT for taking in and nurturing Mido despite all odds against them. That is to say, Mido’s resentment towards Jichan really did take root deep in his heart for him to plan all those revenge despite having been nurtured by Eugene. His fear of being abandoned is so strong that it's gonna take the whole truth behind their past in order to slowly heal that fissure in his heart. Another scene I really adore is when Mido recalled all the indecent things he did to Jichan— Jichan’s reciprocation and initiative to be intimate with Mido was the catalyst to him finally realizing that revenge was never what he wanted and that he never wanted to actually make him suffer the same way he did all those years ago. And him surrendering to that realization is what makes his character so deep. Also, I like how Jichan’s greed to make Mido his back then was what drove his character to start this series of unfortunate events. They are equally flawed and the constant up and down in their relationship’s progress is what makes this compelling to read cuz there's really no easy step into fixing what was gravely broken. That is to say, trauma is never an excuse to do the something wrong but it can explain the reasoning behind it. What can we say, love and hate are two sides of the same coin afterall. Lastly, just wanna add that I love the symbolism of Mido’s fissures healing the moment they both came into terms with their past mistakes and how a single truth from Jichan was everything he needed to heal. Anyways, I'm rambling ALOT here since I read the whole thing in one sitting and I only had 3hrs of sleep but yeah— for a manhwa with only 50+ chapters the characters are fleshed out really well and tho others might find Mido’s redemption arc short, I'd like to say it fits perfectly well with how the story was written. Love the ending
All the SAs and non-concensual acts aside. Mido really is the embodiment of the abused becoming the abuser. Having to live your life in survival mode at a very young age especially in an environment that is so against your whole being can do so much in altering your brain chemistry. Not saying that Mido’s indecent acts towards Jichan is justified but rather to accept the fact that the characters are very nuanced and complex. I'd also like to point out how much I love the idea of Jichan still choosing what he wants to do out of his own volition. Really portrays how every victim's choices and the reason behind those choices are non-linear. I also love how Mido is shown to have an intricate way of thinking. The way he goes back and forth from his revenge and/or wanting to fall for Jichan’s promises again. At the end of the day, what drives both Jichan and Mido’s motives lies on the very fact that they are both intertwined with each other. As per Hyeon’s dialogue “those two can never be separated”. Also, we only got a short glimpse of what Eugene was like but she's the GOAT for taking in and nurturing Mido despite all odds against them. That is to say, Mido’s resentment towards Jichan really did take root deep in his heart for him to plan all those revenge despite having been nurtured by Eugene. His fear of being abandoned is so strong that it's gonna take the whole truth behind their past in order to slowly heal that fissure in his heart. Another scene I really adore is when Mido recalled all the indecent things he did to Jichan— Jichan’s reciprocation and initiative to be intimate with Mido was the catalyst to him finally realizing that revenge was never what he wanted and that he never wanted to actually make him suffer the same way he did all those years ago. And him surrendering to that realization is what makes his character so deep. Also, I like how Jichan’s greed to make Mido his back then was what drove his character to start this series of unfortunate events. They are equally flawed and the constant up and down in their relationship’s progress is what makes this compelling to read cuz there's really no easy step into fixing what was gravely broken. That is to say, trauma is never an excuse to do the something wrong but it can explain the reasoning behind it. What can we say, love and hate are two sides of the same coin afterall. Lastly, just wanna add that I love the symbolism of Mido’s fissures healing the moment they both came into terms with their past mistakes and how a single truth from Jichan was everything he needed to heal. Anyways, I'm rambling ALOT here since I read the whole thing in one sitting and I only had 3hrs of sleep but yeah— for a manhwa with only 50+ chapters the characters are fleshed out really well and tho others might find Mido’s redemption arc short, I'd like to say it fits perfectly well with how the story was written. Love the ending