Ikr , Ilay literally violated him. Took Xinlu's first love away and rapes him everyday and then destroyed one eye of Xinlu and didn't compensate for it at all. Xinlu literally said at the beginning of this manhwa that he really "loved" Taeui , he was ready to do everything for him even if it was the most humiliating thing like being "fucked" by Ilay.
I honestly feel bad for Xinlu that he went through so much for someone (Tay ) who confessed his feelings to someone who rapes him everyday
This is genuinely rooted in internalized homophobia. Bet these the type of people who look at a gay couple irl and their first thought is immediately oh who's the top and who's the bottom. Disgusting.
Mind xinlu also once planned to violate taeui its just he couldnt because ilay alr claimed him
Fr fr, I'm with u
It was a valid crashout from Xinlu's side.
it pisses me off so much that people (not only on this site, but the comments on other sites as well) will still not get over the fact that xinlu got fucked by ilay. they both despised each other even back then and the sex only happened bc they each wanted to have taeui to themselves.
the way some people talk about xinlu bc of that one time he bottomed, it's like they can't take xinlu seriously as a top in xinlu and yuri's relationship bc he will always be defined by the fact that he once had ilay's dick up his ass. it is so incredibly misogynistic that some folks think being penetrated is something shameful or funny and laugh at xinlu when he says he's a top. ilay the manwhore can go around fucking the whole UNHRDO if he wanted and that's sexy, but the moment xinlu has one dick up his ass suddenly it's laughable and embarrassing and he's lost his pride as a man. i need yall to die actually.
xinlu got fucked by ilay. get over it. this isn't ilay's story so stfu about him.