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pfpsleazy September 17, 2026 5:11 pm

I don’t like to get personal on here, because this place is a place for talking about manga but… I don’t really have anyone I can talk to. Its finally happened, more of my friends are in relationships than not. I guess it was an inevitable thing, but,, god it hurts me. I’ve never been someones no.1, but now all my friends are 100% focused on their relationship above everyone else, so I’m lagging behind. I’m happy for them, seriously, I’m not lying when I say I love love, and I love how happy it makes them. I suppose I’m just jealous, because I can’t feel love, so I’ll never be happy like they are. I’m just going to be alone forever. every manga I love ends with people finding happiness through another, but i’ll never have that. I know I’m disgusting, but god i do wish there was a way i could be solely happy for them, and find joy in that, instead of it just showing how lonely of a person i am. I wish someone cared about me, and I wish I could love someone normally. Maybe I really should just die.

Responses
    Ishish September 17, 2026 5:37 pm

    Nahhh twin happens to all of us dw we're not lagging behind. everyone has their own pace and you're on ur own track im sure you'll figure it out with time and at that you'll be embarassed about this vent post I'm sure of it lol

    Numa September 17, 2026 5:45 pm

    I am going through a break up rn, I'll tell u about this later

    FuckMyFuckingChungusLife_69 September 17, 2026 5:47 pm

    TMI: when my friends found out i read bl and gl they literally ghosted me, said im weird for liking this stuff

    Numa September 17, 2026 5:51 pm
    TMI: when my friends found out i read bl and gl they literally ghosted me, said im weird for liking this stuff FuckMyFuckingChungusLife_69

    Hope your friends get their order wrong. Hope they get hair in their food. Hope instead of shampoo it's the hair falling cream they use ( idk what's that called ). Hope they step on dog shit. Hope their water runs out and smell terribly. You deserve better

    ZirconRose September 17, 2026 5:52 pm

    I don't mean to bad talk about your friends, but I don't think they are very good friends if they immediately drop you once they are in relationships.

    Of course there's the excitement of being in a new relationship, but people don't know how to balance that with their existing friendships and end up neglecting them.

    It has nothing to do with you falling behind, heck, you don't even need to date anybody. It's all part of growing up and realizing dating someone is NOT a sure way of having a stable support system.

    FuckMyFuckingChungusLife_69 September 17, 2026 5:58 pm
    Hope your friends get their order wrong. Hope they get hair in their food. Hope instead of shampoo it's the hair falling cream they use ( idk what's that called ). Hope they step on dog shit. Hope their water r... Numa

    Thank you Ma'am or Sir Or Person, hope you have a wonderful night or day <3

    fromayearnercult September 17, 2026 5:59 pm

    I hate to be nosy but everyone like that so why I can't be and it's not like that babe that ur unable to love or feel love when it will happen it will come to love ur flaws and everything and for that we have to be a lil patience because good things come in the end u shouldn't kill urself cause maybe who knows there is someone waiting for u or yearning for u to js love u the way u are and dw there is also someone that will make u their no.1 priority and cares for u it's fine to be jealous cause we can't help but also want the warmth of someone we can be with ourselves but anywayssss and ur not a wimp for sharing ur feelings sometimes its better to express urself rather than suffering I hopee u find ur someone special and sometimes we feel like there's no one for us but it's js a phase babee it'll also end js and the good times will come till then take caree

    paulintka September 17, 2026 6:00 pm

    How old are you bestie? Tbh everyone has their time, I didn't have a boyfriend until I went to university! And lo and behold, my first boyfriend was the last, because we're happily married now and almost 20 yrs together ^^ Also another thing: he helped me love myself and accept myself as I am, so don't believe in that "you have to love yourself first" bs... sure it helps, but it's not a necessity. Everyone works differently and everyone blooms at different times.

    Moss September 17, 2026 6:27 pm

    i think ur feelings are completely valid, i’m assuming ur maybe a teen ??? but you shouldn’t die, you won’t always feel this bad. and not everything is fixed by having a partner either. you have a lot of life left to live and you can make connections with people who also enjoy the things you do, those connections can be platonic or romantic. you won’t be in this situation forever.

    pfpsleazy September 17, 2026 7:02 pm
    i think ur feelings are completely valid, i’m assuming ur maybe a teen ??? but you shouldn’t die, you won’t always feel this bad. and not everything is fixed by having a partner either. you have a lot of ... Moss

    I’m an adult.

    I suppose thats not really easy for one to understand, especially in the moment. Empty words like “it’ll get better” don’t really reflect my reality, so it’s hard to feel comforted by them. Its not like I don’t have opportunities to meet new people, I’ve meet tons of people, and some of them can even stand my personality. But my friends are the only people I’ve ever felt close to. I can even see it in the people around me in the day to day, they always have a specific person to turn to, not even factoring relationship, I don’t think I’ve ever had a friendship like that. So its difficult to see a future where that changes

    pfpsleazy September 17, 2026 7:03 pm
    How old are you bestie? Tbh everyone has their time, I didn't have a boyfriend until I went to university! And lo and behold, my first boyfriend was the last, because we're happily married now and almost 20 yrs... paulintka

    I don’t wish to share any personal information about myself, more than I have. I am an adult. Also, I’m very happy about you and your boyfriend, I hope you live happily together.

    pfpsleazy September 17, 2026 7:06 pm
    I hate to be nosy but everyone like that so why I can't be and it's not like that babe that ur unable to love or feel love when it will happen it will come to love ur flaws and everything and for that we have t... fromayearnercult

    I know what love feels like, I can approximate it in my head, and I physically feel repulsed and get nauseous if I even consider feeling that way towards another person, I cannot stand any forms of physical contact on bad days, and thoughts of sex have left me throwing up before.

    pfpsleazy September 17, 2026 7:08 pm
    I don't mean to bad talk about your friends, but I don't think they are very good friends if they immediately drop you once they are in relationships. Of course there's the excitement of being in a new relation... ZirconRose

    I didn’t mean to imply they’re dropping me, thats not the case whatsoever, its just seeing their first priority become a single person, instead of me, who’s only been cared of as a part of a group, makes me jealous. I don’t think my friends are perfect people, but they’re not doing anything wrong by being in love

    pfpsleazy September 17, 2026 7:10 pm
    TMI: when my friends found out i read bl and gl they literally ghosted me, said im weird for liking this stuff FuckMyFuckingChungusLife_69

    That’s awful. I’m so so sorry. They don’t deserve you. Please, live well, I’m sure friends who share your passions will come along.

    pfpsleazy September 17, 2026 7:11 pm
    I am going through a break up rn, I'll tell u about this later Numa

    I’m so so sorry for your loss. That’s truly awful, I can only imagine how hard it must be for you. Live well, and be sure to treat yourself in the coming days.

    pfpsleazy September 17, 2026 7:12 pm
    Nahhh twin happens to all of us dw we're not lagging behind. everyone has their own pace and you're on ur own track im sure you'll figure it out with time and at that you'll be embarassed about this vent post ... Ishish

    I always am, at the very least with this one, it won’t stick in anyones mind other than my own. And eventually it will disappear forever…

    Moss September 17, 2026 8:09 pm
    I’m an adult. I suppose thats not really easy for one to understand, especially in the moment. Empty words like “it’ll get better” don’t really reflect my reality, so it’s hard to feel comforted by ... pfpsleazy

    ah okay my bad. i have been there though. i have reached the lowest of lows, ive attempted to take my own life because of this before as well. i grow very attached to people and i’ve had friends that i’ve had since childhood leave. i’ve been very alone before and it’s put me in a really dark place. ik “it gets better” sounds incredibly empty because in the moment it feels forever, but it’ll only be forever if you let it be. if you were to die right now you would have ended ur life in a time of loneliness but if you live you’ll at least have a chance. don’t give up yet, as you see a couple people here have responded to u in hopes of helping you out. i hope at least you can maybe make some online friends ??? ik how it feels to be alone and yearn for a close connection. but i dont think it’ll always be this bad for you.