no cus i feel you but just remember everyone moves at their own pace there's no set timeline, just bcs ppl ur age are achieving certain things doesnt mean youre supposed to be at the same place youre not behind just bcs someone got there first take it easy and stop stressing over things beyond ur control
if waiting and questioning for the next years to come is overwhelming, then you’ll be stuck feeling that way until you die. unless! you slowly stop dreading and doubting. whether you’re “accepting the fate” or not is up to you. you have the device you’re using that can benefit you, and you sure as hell have a beating heart. you’re never too late to have a go at life. getting up and finding even the tiniest of reasons to push forward will relieve you of your worries more than you think

I don't have anything to do, waiting for next year feels like forever. And what will I do next year? What about the years after?