i feel so sad (for those of you who don't wanna take the story super seriously then pls disregard my comment)

when I saw the authors note, I thought it was crazy how we literally thought the same thing (the whole thing abt bad losers and good losers). the mc of other toxic yaois tend to be good losers which is why they piss me off so bad bc the author continues to put them in bad situations that they don't deserve. for this one, the mc is a bad loser and I didn't see the extent of it until I saw the things he's done (yk stalking, going thru ml's phone, the hate comments, etc), so i thought he lowkey deserved all the insults from the ml at the beginning. but as this went on i just feel so bad for both mc and ml bc they desperately need help the ml was slowly being affected by this toxic ass relationship to the point where he picked up smoking again, did things he normally wouldn't have done, and became reliant on mc. the mc on the other hand...it's fucking insane what moonjo did to him—like what do you MEAN all the SH he did was because of him. plus that part where mc was left alone with moonjo and no matter how he tried to stand up for himself, he ended up saying he'd go back to moonjo (until ml showed up). yes, it felt like a pretty real example of someone so affected by their trauma, so much so that he relapsed and did SH again...but that ending was so unfortunate and trash because they both need help so bad anyways that was just my thoughts on the story but if you thought of this as just a quick read then don't mind me cuz this is js the way I read; i like interpreting it in my own way.