"Will you be only satisfied after you've torn apart and remade me to suit your exact taste ?? Is that what love is to you " asked Heejae as the focus moves to Garam's desperate face is peak cinema cuz this is what Heejae did with Garam...
Maybe this is what is being human like , becoming the very thing who hate the most...For Heejae, change probably gives him anxiety...Heejae is not evil but definitely a coward who hides behinds his sharp knife like toungue and his words that stings like poison to protect himself from the fear of getting abandoned and in the process of binding himself to his loved ones, he ends up hurting them the most...He would rather show his feelings through his actions , his music and even his writing rather than facing his own flaws and weakness but would never dare to speak it...
P.S--funny how Heejae always reminds me of my mom , a victim of her cruel family , the judgemental society , scared of being abandoned, but will NEVER end up saying so... She will always act like "the villian" in everyone's story rather than accept that she too craves love and affection... My mother is a "If I push people away first , if I don't let people too close to me , if I act like I don't care about them and If I hurt them first and and act like a knife then I would not get hurt " ...Maybe the only people who understand my mom the best is me and my father and which is why even though people might wonder how can we still try to be by her side even after being hurt so many times...I too probably call it love... Because love not perfect, NOBODY is perfect and nobody will ever be perfect... but my way of showing love is staying by her side and making her feel that I understand her twisted way of showing love is a mechanism to protect her self... for some it might be "toxic" but for me it's love ...
"Will you be only satisfied after you've torn apart and remade me to suit your exact taste ?? Is that what love is to you " asked Heejae as the focus moves to Garam's desperate face is peak cinema cuz this is what Heejae did with Garam...
Maybe this is what is being human like , becoming the very thing who hate the most...For Heejae, change probably gives him anxiety...Heejae is not evil but definitely a coward who hides behinds his sharp knife like toungue and his words that stings like poison to protect himself from the fear of getting abandoned and in the process of binding himself to his loved ones, he ends up hurting them the most...He would rather show his feelings through his actions , his music and even his writing rather than facing his own flaws and weakness but would never dare to speak it...
P.S--funny how Heejae always reminds me of my mom , a victim of her cruel family , the judgemental society , scared of being abandoned, but will NEVER end up saying so... She will always act like "the villian" in everyone's story rather than accept that she too craves love and affection... My mother is a "If I push people away first , if I don't let people too close to me , if I act like I don't care about them and If I hurt them first and and act like a knife then I would not get hurt " ...Maybe the only people who understand my mom the best is me and my father and which is why even though people might wonder how can we still try to be by her side even after being hurt so many times...I too probably call it love... Because love not perfect, NOBODY is perfect and nobody will ever be perfect... but my way of showing love is staying by her side and making her feel that I understand her twisted way of showing love is a mechanism to protect her self... for some it might be "toxic" but for me it's love ...