TOO MUCH TEARS, I CANNOT THIS IS A FREAKING GEM

I THOUGHT I WON'T CRY BUT MY HEAD REALLY REALLY HURTS WITH ALL THESE CRYING!!!!!! MY PILLOW IS SOAKED WITH TEARS, HOW COULD U HURT US LIKE THIS!!!!! THE SADNESS I CAN'T GET IT OUT OF MY HEART JUST LIKE WHAT JEAN FELT LIKE