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Exactlyyyy. The world is not black and white, villains are often more interesting in literature because they have flushed out depth, good/bad, and they aren't held back by audience's fickle or self righteous expectations. But the minute they are an actual MC, suddenly it's too much. This is not even a "self-insert" book

The hate books get for having too much plot or complex main characters feels like booktok brain. It hints with the prologue that this is not a quicky, "turn your brain off" read, or lovey dovey series. So this is not for you if you want instant gratification, or for the main character to be a "good guy"