Danggg i feel so emotional tonight😔 every single thing is making my heart ache

Is there such a thing as "autumn longing" because thats literally what im experiencing rn..., Winter is for depression, summer is for feeling hollow inside, spring is for feeling giddy and having butterflies in your stomach, and autumn is for thinking about all of your past loves and imagining yourself in impossible situations, having your heart ache after reading a love story and feeling like someone is pressing down on your heart so hard that you cant even breath but at the same time you want to kiss the hand who presses it. I love love so much i wish it was real