Then she asked me to swear to god and I did, that was the first time I swaered and lied. She left me alone after that but I felt heavy guilt after that and couldn't sleep easily. The next day mangago shut down and I couldn't log back in no mater how hard I tried. That same night I prayed to god for the first time since ages for forgivnes.An actual prayer not just something I just say on a whim for god luck. I gathered all of my broken first language skills and prayed. The next day it onky took me 3 tries to log back in. So maybe there is a god and maybe he dosen't care or will forhive if I read yaoi and not hating lgbtq members

2 days ago I stayed up late reading yaoi on my laptop and playing yandere sim when my mom came in. I hid the laptop and my mom "woke me up" and asked me if I was awake. I said "no"