I read whole novel here full spoiler !!!!

Character review

• [Hernan (uke) + in his mid 30s + crippled and weak + in past he was strong man bodyguard of seme ] for 4 timelines he come between seme and luce (but not really** read my timeline details for uke efforts in each timeline after character review)
and try to have seme and he is jealous, greed and schemey type , he confessed to seme and got rejected very badly for being older and harbour feelings for seme who hates older men, in 4th timeline seme broke his right leg cuz after killing luce seme trapped uke in prison and uke decide just go out and seme broke his leg to stop him from running from him , he also consumed poison lot in 4th timeline given by seme (but not really it was seme's aid james who given it to uke without seme knowing anything about it and uke belived seme wanted him to suffer and die badly) after uke finally lost will to leave died. Then in fifth timeline uke is unexpectedly married to seme who is still 18-19 of age by society uke seen as in fifth timeline as old perverted crippled man who married beautiful seme against his will and trapped him in his scala mansion. Uke has bad reputation in 5th timeline and people just made bad assumptions about him and uke become total leg go type he doesn't care about himself anymore he wants luce and seme happiness he doesn't believe in love of his own anymore he just want anyone he hurted to be happy especially seme with his love "luce" , he also told seme he would divorce seme gladly after seme has something of his own commander title in empire till then he wanted to support seme as his spouse in name, also uke is anxious till the end of series. Uke lost his strength in 5th timeline he is weak and fragile use cane to support himself.

• [Calix (grows taller and handsome men till 23 of age + hate older man + rejected uke + become commander ] - being youngest beautiful son of his house he knew his father would married him off to an old man for benefit of his family , so uke was his bodyguard in each timeline till 5th come and he become his spouse, seme doesn't remember any of 3 timelines he only knows 4th and enter 5th cuz of black magic he used to revive dead uke , seme hated older men cuz he knows they view him only as object of lust cuz of his beauty when uke confessed to him he was young boy he badly rejected uke with harsh words and fall in love with luce who was around his age but uke always eventually kills his lover and his hatred mixed with hidden love for uke grows more than love seme was uncertain and his hatred for older men blinded him from his love for uke in 5th timeline at first he was sure he would lod luce if he keep meeting him but that didn't happen and he fall harder for uke who is now nothing but crippled man nd made him this time. Guilt and hidden feelings forms slowly and he fell harder for uke. Misunderstanding also played part in his behaviour. He learnt fighting from uke to become powerful ended up becoming empires well known commander he no longer known for his beauty but for his heroic wars. In 5th timeline he also has amnesia we get may be even without memories seme would still chose uke

• [ Luce around seme age + lover of seme)] luce in 1st timeline step brother of uke thy both were orphans and seme met him when uke once brought him on hunting competiton they become closer , although seme rejected uke they made promise in which luce told uke that "seme wanted you to die in battlefield stop hurting him" luce lied about that cuz he wanted seme for himself and uke belived seme wanted him dead so uke never met seme cuz of luce words and seme belived uke left and abandoned him. In 5th timeline luce become playboy who steals lovers of others and rich painter tooo. Luce also used to paint but in this he also did with more influence cuz he is rich boy now.

[***Timelines]
- (1st) uke schemed with seme father to kill luce after seme returned from war becoming hero , uke jealousy was at peak and seme killed uke with his own hands. (2nd) - uke understood he was wrong but couldn't survive timeline cuz monster killed him whole he tried to protect luce and (3rd)- uke turn to marry luce he try to protect luce in this too yet failed cuz he played duel match in which he married luce after seme left for war coming back in duel seme killed uke with his sword that's exactly the outcome uke wanted he thought if he died maybe seme and luce would have happy future (4th )- I m not sure how luce died in it but seme come back from war becoming hero and he locked up uke in mansion and tortured him for days with poison feeding locked up on chain till he died in this he broke his leg and felt hurt that uke abandoned him and also killed his lover luce. After uke died seme brought black magic magician ti bring uke ti life even if he is broken and scattered didn't matter he just wanted him back interruption of seme black magic and forest god's will to make uke suffer clash made possible for seme to remember 4th timeline to 5th one.

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-[Storyline -whole spoiler with angsty]
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Just as 5th timeline started uke was ready to hand seme to his lover or any person of his appropriate age and beautiful, divorce him with his title and wealth he has without taking anything with him, seme in beginning was confused about his feelings he tells uke harsh words then reflect on hisbehaviour he is like in rebellious phase or something uke take anything seme says to him without saying anything in return he believes every words and humiliation from seme he deserves them not love but punishment for his sins he had done as they got invited to parties people doesn't approach uke but seme , uke loved how seme was center of attention and loved by everyone just as he should and uke is happy in corner seeing this scene but seme eyes always follows uke who is always in dark just standing with his crippled leg he made , guilt and pain seme feel cuz of was beyond his understanding himself but seme become cane of uke supporting him, seme got growth spurt and his body start to hurt seme told uke to sleep beside him n one room just so seme father won't kill uke cuz they didn't have any kids yet and father see no potential in uke for giving any child, seme become obsessed and possessive of uke but uke believe "I m just a broken toy seme took interest in little once he will meet luce his only love he won't look at me then he eyes his affection everything will go to luce then i would be at peace to see this beautiful couple being happy" , always uke think of it seme eventually knows what uke is thinking, lot happens seme meet luce just as uke wanted him to always seme drag uke with him every meeting were never alone uke thought "seme wanted him to see look how perfect we are it's also bittersweet but they are beyond my reach " uke in this timeline is innocent man who holds nothing special, he is weak man now gets easily exhausted and seme always worried about him , there was painter who painted rough sketch of seme smiling who was talking to luce , uke kept that sketch in his pocket thinking " real person won't smile at me like that " painter was woman she was talent and at the end of series seme made her to paint portrait of him and uke to hang that in mansion entrance as married couple, after few meetings with luce seme comes to conclusions he is not the same luce whom he knew everything has changed and he loves uke he stopped meeting luce after few times , after uke once told seme himself that "I know you wanted me dead in battlefield i m sorry I come back alive I know luce told me that " seme thought to himself maybe he never knew what type of person luce was he hidden his true self from send misunderstanding of "uke abandoning seme" resolved here seme become softer towards uke and gentles behaviour uke become uncomfortable with that , seme is not affectionate type unless it was luce in uke memories seme always look at uke with anger, disgusted look who knew his feelings and never wanted him near him. Uke never lusted after seme , uke always been hungry for affection whenever seme shows him affection and gentles uke thought " it's bread crumbs seme is throwing at him as throw at dog cuz of his gentle nature he can't possibly treat me badly" , after luce changed lot in 5th timeline seme finally told that he won't be meeting luce anymore, they parted just that and seme always cling to uke like a spouse who shows affection uke become accumsmed his behaviour they even went to beach and seme finally told uke that "I won't be meeting luce anymore he is not same and i never loved him lot has changed in this timeline" uke become terrified and cried in front of seme and said "did I ruin everything again? How could it be did i apart both of you again? I m the reason it happened he is love of your life I think I m mistaken again" before seme process uke thought, uke with his crippled leg goes right to beach to die again thinking he still need to revive to make things right again seme stopped him and told uke that "I don't love luce, i want you Hernan , want us to leave past behind and be happy and start a new" after lots of struggle uke understood till seme didn't stop he cling to uke and confess as they gotten closer become lover uke still believed seme deserve someone better not him , after that time of seme leaving for battlefield reach he and " promised to uke that wait for me 2 years and don't want to divorce uke , I will be back as hero with a title " uke agreed and wait for seme , seme keep sending letters to uke from his battlefield with different flowers he encountered in his journey till they reach uke they withered but uke loved how lovely those letter were from seme after half year passed letters stopped Coming uke thought seme must be busy , till time come of returns and he no longer had memories of only " his spouse, Hernan uke" , by rumours from others they told seme that "he is victim in marriage and uke is bad old crippled perverted man who locked up seme" seme thought of divorcing uke since uke sound like bad call by others , but he was curious to know uke himself, as uke gets to know seme has forgotten only him he was sad devasted didn't resent seme but himself for still hoping for love he can't have , but uke saw this as opportunity and have seme better companion not me but someone in Empire who would be just like seme , after seme reach scala uke mansion and told uke that he don't know him and uke prepared the divorce papers and told seme ti signed them but seme was curious "if he kept me locked up on mansion and wanted me so bad why he is ready to divorce me so soon" also settlement is disadvantage for uke , everything wealth and Penny of his will go to seme after divorce, a crippled man like uke needed assistant how he would survive, seme of without memories fell for uke slowly after he strike deal with uke ti give him time he would make uke fell for him , meanwhile uke always kept thd portrait of seme in his pocket, it as that forest god who removed seme memories since seme got his memories back but uke was happy when seme lost his memories who confessed and said "i love you " ti uke without hesitation after lot happened finally seme got memories and he keep clinging to uke like leech uke doesn't trust seme even till the end he thought it's all dream and this world will scatter anytime, they eventually have consent sex it was good actually uke was Total innocent and seme was eager to have it , tbh uke was scared ri touch seme first himself he thought seme would find him disgusting but iy was opposite seme was sexually attracted to uke and keep getting hard on slightest touch from uke , later on SMS finally made matching rings and proposed to uke , seme again wanted a marriage since uke wouldn't agree to it now he would ask him and seme every day without fail tells uke "I love you" make his worried go away he knows what uke thinks so he always read up uke easily never put him in difficult situation.


My review - it was good and sad read uke struggle and every person who tells him that "he doesn't deserve seme he is broken and all" those all words hurts me a lot , those who said talking about kids there is no mention of that here seme was happy as two only , also seme become cane for uke leg he watches and read uke mind and never push him against his will. Good part about this story has lots of passionate kisss than sex, no Sa just pure angst of emotions. I m excited to see these all emotions in manhwa but i don't think manhwa would be able convey all these emotions...