i fell into the cycle of getting through like 5 chapters of this and feeling so full of rage and disgust then frustrated with myself for enduring it for nothing then putting it down and forgetting about it for several weeks then in the middle of the night when i got nothing but time i’ll innocently scroll through my last read list and rediscover the story and after ~5 chapters ill go bed seething gritting my teeth. i think the author is very good at twisting the knife into you (that’s why there are so many comments lashing out at the mcs supposed stupidity. like yes he is stupid. but hes not suffering because of his stupidity but because he is subjected to the classist pedophilic claws of capitalism. and being able to see and feel the mcs helplessness first hand is devastating but lacking the ability to comprehend the wider structures that keeps the mc helpless is why people are prone to turn inwards and attack the mc for making the reader feel that way. when really you feel that way because empathising is human. but experiencing that hurt outside of its situational context can make it incomprehensible which easily trigger defensiveness. anger doesn’t have to blind you. it can be eye opening. if you don’t sit with that upset long enough, you won’t see how this horrific and enduring abuse was started by debt and was sustained by debt which is a deeply capitalist construct. without which there would be no incentive for other characters to look the other way when they witness such suffering. because the attempt at being humane such as to shield a young boy from prolific harm would not be an action that might cause permanent damage to their livelihoods) which is a solid literary skill for sure. but knowing that he will choose the son is just waiting for the guillotine to fall when i already feel it at the neck ╥﹏╥ because genuinely the son and the father is the same by a difference of what 20 years? im only 30 chapters in but they have both raped him so what differs them to each other besides eye colour? when the son called mc a liar i think my heart dropped all the way to my ass. if i was a weaker man it would have straight killed me. to rape someone and think it is affection then to accuse them of lying because you were not their first rapist?!? i would shit in their food every day. i would feed their own shit back them. love the chicken love the egg.
i fell into the cycle of getting through like 5 chapters of this and feeling so full of rage and disgust then frustrated with myself for enduring it for nothing then putting it down and forgetting about it for several weeks then in the middle of the night when i got nothing but time i’ll innocently scroll through my last read list and rediscover the story and after ~5 chapters ill go bed seething gritting my teeth.
i think the author is very good at twisting the knife into you (that’s why there are so many comments lashing out at the mcs supposed stupidity. like yes he is stupid. but hes not suffering because of his stupidity but because he is subjected to the classist pedophilic claws of capitalism. and being able to see and feel the mcs helplessness first hand is devastating but lacking the ability to comprehend the wider structures that keeps the mc helpless is why people are prone to turn inwards and attack the mc for making the reader feel that way. when really you feel that way because empathising is human. but experiencing that hurt outside of its situational context can make it incomprehensible which easily trigger defensiveness. anger doesn’t have to blind you. it can be eye opening. if you don’t sit with that upset long enough, you won’t see how this horrific and enduring abuse was started by debt and was sustained by debt which is a deeply capitalist construct. without which there would be no incentive for other characters to look the other way when they witness such suffering. because the attempt at being humane such as to shield a young boy from prolific harm would not be an action that might cause permanent damage to their livelihoods) which is a solid literary skill for sure. but knowing that he will choose the son is just waiting for the guillotine to fall when i already feel it at the neck ╥﹏╥ because genuinely the son and the father is the same by a difference of what 20 years? im only 30 chapters in but they have both raped him so what differs them to each other besides eye colour? when the son called mc a liar i think my heart dropped all the way to my ass. if i was a weaker man it would have straight killed me. to rape someone and think it is affection then to accuse them of lying because you were not their first rapist?!? i would shit in their food every day. i would feed their own shit back them. love the chicken love the egg.