No you are not the asshole. You deserve kindness, patience, and respect especially from someone who is your parent. If you can I’d recommend trying to get out of that environment. If you’re unable to do that just don’t do anything for them anymore and focus on your own wellbeing. I believe you will succeed in life. You are worthy. It’s not selfish to care for yourself and to value your own energy and mental health. :)
You’re not alone I’m with you we have a similar mom
I’m so sorry you’re going through that. I’ve also been experiencing that for a long time, and all I’d say to you is: let your tears flow. It’s better than pretending you’re fine, and it does NOT make you an asshole. Don’t let the hurtful words get to you, and just focus on the things that make you happy.
am i the asshole for crying every night because of my narcissistic mom insults? im so tired of holding back tears when she yells at me infront of my siblings,she never appreciated everything i did to her and my sisters,i spent hundreds buying them gifts but never got anything back,all i got was "why did i gave birth to a retard" all i do every night is sit on mangago reading ragebait comments to make myself happy after bawling my eyes out