He’s like me. Baek Dohu’s probably-definitely on the spectrum. The difference between us is that I went hardcore into masking. I started reading psychology books & acting when I was in elementary because things just go so hard…at school and at home, people wouldn’t give me a break and I had to force myself to change or at least look it.
What was really effective for me was learning how expressions worked by drawing and reading about emotional stuff. I learned really well! So well that people think I’m soft hearted and sweet…they only really notice something’s wrong when we’re together too often. I still don’t have the correct response to things and I forget to fake it when I’m too tired or when I don’t have anyone to imitate. Like my birthday when my friends sang for me and did this whole thing & EVERYONE thought I’d cry or at least budge but my face was stone….I had to fake a reason whoops.
I don’t understand emotions & expressions. It will probably never be instinctual for me. It’s mysterious but I find it pretty on other people. This world is unkind to anything and anyone different from the “normal” but that’s just how it is. Masking like this is exhausting for me and honestly, I’m cracking because it’s all so tiring but what else can I do? I don’t even know what my favorite color or food is if I’m not imitating a character.
He’s like me. Baek Dohu’s probably-definitely on the spectrum. The difference between us is that I went hardcore into masking. I started reading psychology books & acting when I was in elementary because things just go so hard…at school and at home, people wouldn’t give me a break and I had to force myself to change or at least look it.
What was really effective for me was learning how expressions worked by drawing and reading about emotional stuff. I learned really well! So well that people think I’m soft hearted and sweet…they only really notice something’s wrong when we’re together too often. I still don’t have the correct response to things and I forget to fake it when I’m too tired or when I don’t have anyone to imitate. Like my birthday when my friends sang for me and did this whole thing & EVERYONE thought I’d cry or at least budge but my face was stone….I had to fake a reason whoops.
I don’t understand emotions & expressions. It will probably never be instinctual for me. It’s mysterious but I find it pretty on other people. This world is unkind to anything and anyone different from the “normal” but that’s just how it is. Masking like this is exhausting for me and honestly, I’m cracking because it’s all so tiring but what else can I do? I don’t even know what my favorite color or food is if I’m not imitating a character.