Adam is going into a depression from a combination of his current blindness, his leg injury, and Eve's words. The doctor said "we're looking for a transplant donor, so let's wait and see." But with any sort of transplant comes inherent problems such as rejection, which can leave you worse than you were, and the caveat of having to take immunosuppression drugs to decrease chances of rejection. That combined with his leg injury, although they used synthetic bone and the doctor said "you should be able to walk fine," it doesn't guarantee it. He hasn't actually walked yet and could need physical therapy or be left with a limp. Then with Eve's words when he said "when we're no longer useful, we die." Adam probably finds being a guide to be something he planned to do for the rest of his life or until he was too old to. As a military man, he probably never even considered the possibility of changing careers or doing something else. To no longer be able to be a guide actively deployed into gates has him feeling helpless, no doubt, because he can't help or do anything. In the last chapters, Adam is very much a born leader who is capable of taking charge and doing what is necessary. People rely on him. When Eve comes into the room and says he's been waiting for him to wake up, he probably thinks he only cares about him because he's his guide. "You're my guide after all. I need you." Eve wasn't in the room when the doctor mentioned retirement, but Adam probably thinks that Eve is only here because of their esper-guide relationship. Of course Eve could have overheard the doctor and been aware of Adam's situation, but assuming he didn't. Adam is already considering the possibility that a compatible donor never appears, his leg doesn't actually allow him to walk again, and that Eve finds another guide because he can no longer do it in gates. He's probably thinking the only thing he has left is his body, hence the sex. But he's also using it to forget the current reality of his situation. I believe he's also scared of what Eve will think or say if he knew he was "no longer useful." He's probably worried that Eve will think he has no reason to continue living if he doesn't have any use as a guide, just like espers.
Adam is going into a depression from a combination of his current blindness, his leg injury, and Eve's words.
The doctor said "we're looking for a transplant donor, so let's wait and see." But with any sort of transplant comes inherent problems such as rejection, which can leave you worse than you were, and the caveat of having to take immunosuppression drugs to decrease chances of rejection. That combined with his leg injury, although they used synthetic bone and the doctor said "you should be able to walk fine," it doesn't guarantee it. He hasn't actually walked yet and could need physical therapy or be left with a limp.
Then with Eve's words when he said "when we're no longer useful, we die." Adam probably finds being a guide to be something he planned to do for the rest of his life or until he was too old to. As a military man, he probably never even considered the possibility of changing careers or doing something else. To no longer be able to be a guide actively deployed into gates has him feeling helpless, no doubt, because he can't help or do anything. In the last chapters, Adam is very much a born leader who is capable of taking charge and doing what is necessary. People rely on him.
When Eve comes into the room and says he's been waiting for him to wake up, he probably thinks he only cares about him because he's his guide. "You're my guide after all. I need you."
Eve wasn't in the room when the doctor mentioned retirement, but Adam probably thinks that Eve is only here because of their esper-guide relationship. Of course Eve could have overheard the doctor and been aware of Adam's situation, but assuming he didn't.
Adam is already considering the possibility that a compatible donor never appears, his leg doesn't actually allow him to walk again, and that Eve finds another guide because he can no longer do it in gates.
He's probably thinking the only thing he has left is his body, hence the sex. But he's also using it to forget the current reality of his situation. I believe he's also scared of what Eve will think or say if he knew he was "no longer useful." He's probably worried that Eve will think he has no reason to continue living if he doesn't have any use as a guide, just like espers.