People with a lot to lose tend to have that much more fear This part of the chapter says ...

People with a lot to lose tend to have that much more fear

This part of the chapter says a lot. He'd rather pretend to not remember Tae Kyung and hurt his feelings just to protect him. Even if it meant to torture himself. I feel like we're gonna get that near-death-experience from either of them and they can finally get the happy ending they deserve