I already kinda call it that Yashiro gonna ditch Doumeki when he found out that he fall in love with him. The reason maybe to protect Doumeki for getting even more involve but its probably just one of many reason. I think the main reason why he left Doumeki is because his entire persona that he have right know is not compatible for love relationship. Yashiro made this persona of loose bitch that fuck anybody and masochist guy that like pain probably back in his teen (and probably the persona more solidify after he have his first heart break with his first crush, Kageyama). He always insist himself that he like pain and love is not for him. This persona definitely came from his childhood trauma of him being raped by his step dad and a way for Yashiro to run away from that event.
That why Nanahara say that Yashiro always ditch any of his man that he have sex the moment they start to fall in love with him. Doumeki fall in love with him mean that he will take care and protect Yashiro with care now. But Yashiro persona is not made to be care by other people. He made that persona so other people could treat him like trash and cum dumpster then act like he enjoy it in which in turn justify his rape by his step dad as something that not terrible as he actually enjoy the rape.
He know if he have sex with Doumeki in normal way and then stay with him longer, then the entire persona of him would be shattered. He will remember again that he actually not masochist. He just insist that he the one. He dont like pain. He just act like he was. And then he gonna realize. He was once raped as kid and he really hates it. Its definitely not easy for Yashiro to just fall in love with Doumeki and live like normal couple as that would also mean admit that he himself is telling a lie to himself for probably 20 year of his life.
I already kinda call it that Yashiro gonna ditch Doumeki when he found out that he fall in love with him. The reason maybe to protect Doumeki for getting even more involve but its probably just one of many reason. I think the main reason why he left Doumeki is because his entire persona that he have right know is not compatible for love relationship. Yashiro made this persona of loose bitch that fuck anybody and masochist guy that like pain probably back in his teen (and probably the persona more solidify after he have his first heart break with his first crush, Kageyama). He always insist himself that he like pain and love is not for him. This persona definitely came from his childhood trauma of him being raped by his step dad and a way for Yashiro to run away from that event.
That why Nanahara say that Yashiro always ditch any of his man that he have sex the moment they start to fall in love with him. Doumeki fall in love with him mean that he will take care and protect Yashiro with care now. But Yashiro persona is not made to be care by other people. He made that persona so other people could treat him like trash and cum dumpster then act like he enjoy it in which in turn justify his rape by his step dad as something that not terrible as he actually enjoy the rape.
He know if he have sex with Doumeki in normal way and then stay with him longer, then the entire persona of him would be shattered. He will remember again that he actually not masochist. He just insist that he the one. He dont like pain. He just act like he was. And then he gonna realize. He was once raped as kid and he really hates it. Its definitely not easy for Yashiro to just fall in love with Doumeki and live like normal couple as that would also mean admit that he himself is telling a lie to himself for probably 20 year of his life.