I'm Glade I'm not the only one. it was okay up to that point after that the whole thing was ruined.n
I would've left him.... I know it would break my heart since i prolly really loved him but.... Im a very possessive person and finding out that he has been touched by another..... My yandere side would come out (▰˘◡˘▰) Been tryin to suppress it for years and doing a pretty good job sooooo..... Id leave and cry as i dont look back (aka chase me and i might come back after..... Maybe a yr at the least)
yup, ruined it for me too... i mean, yes you have a job to do, but you don't need to sleep with women to get it done no? and on top of it al he admitted to like it... i'm sorry but i'm not the kind to share my man so sorry but if i was madoka i would've been soooo mad and most likely left him... and sadly, not come back... ┑(￣Д ￣)┍
Didn't like that part either, but it is very realistic. If you think about people working undercover as we speak, they probably have to do even more atrocious things in order to stop even more horrible things to happen (drugs, human trafficking, etc.). Not sure if I'd be able to handle it though, either waiting at home or the one having to "cheat".
You have a very mature and rational view of a fictional setting. I must say, I'm very impressed. Though I was disappointed by the scenario of the seme having to sleep with someone for information, like you, I understood the reason he had to do it and also the reason he felt so blazé about it. If I were in the uke's shoes, I would be hurt, angry, jealous and feeling very insecure, but I would do my best to understand my partner's position because that is what it means to love someone. The seme didn't necessarily "cheat" in my opinion. Cheating happens in the heart, not the bed. Perhaps it is because I have worked in adult entertainment and had to have sex with other actors and actresses whom I considered close friends and trusted, but did not love by any stretch of the imagination. The sex we had was work and nothing more and that is precisely how we all viewed it. No different than throwing burgers on a grill or loading boxes onto shelves. I believe it is the same for those working in espionage. Which is why the seme acted so blazé. Sex with that woman was no different than loading boxes or flipping burgers. Sex with his lover, the uke, is something altogether different. There is meaning, emotion and bonds created. The physical act of sex can be done with or by anyone and that Is a fact. What makes it special and important is whether or not you have feelings for your partner and they have feelings for you. The same act takes on a whole new meaning when it is done with someone you love and who loves you back.
As for being able to endure being in the seme or uke's shoes, humans are amazingly resilient. We can endure much more than we think we can. Especially in the case of those who are selfless enough to put their lives and safety at risk for the sake of millions of strangers as soldiers and spies. What I did, I did for money. There was no righteous ulterior motive. Yet, I endured quite a lot. I'm sure that, with the right motivation, anyone can endure almost anything.
"Cheating happens in the heart, not the bed." that makes no sense. men/women sleep with other people due to selfishness, or just physical pleasure. the heart has nothing to do with it. yes, he had a good excuse due to his job, but that doesnt change the fact that he cheated on his partner. he should have discussed this with him before doing it, to see if it was something he could handle.
Didnt really like the first one as he was happy to sleep with woman for his job and didnt think much of if kinda ruined it for me