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Sexuality ╮( ̄▽ ̄)╭

Yaoilynn January 29, 2018 9:02 pm

Hey there!

I am sorry, it's going to be so complicated and long! Thank you so much for reading and responding (づ ̄ ³ ̄)づ

I need your help. I want to know if you have ever been somehow confused about your sexuality. I am a lesbian. A came out a few years ago. (I'm on high school btw ┑( ̄Д  ̄)┍) And everyone was sooo okay with it, my parents included. Because I am growing up, everything is different. I like different things than before and everything just changes drastically fast, BUT my sexuality. That is still the only thing that has not changed during past few years. I was never so sure with something more than this before. That's why I even decided to come out!
I was emotionally attracted to a woman before, although I never met her. I just kinda 'stalked' her through social media and I fell in an unrequited weird love. It lasted a few months, I was obsessed with her. That's when I thought I love women, but I still kind of fell in love with my male best friend. I confessed and wow! He liked me back.

We started going out, but after like super short time I broke up with him. I didn't like touching him, it was.. unpleasant. I felt huge regret after touching him, I couldn't take it. So that's why it even made me sure that I am gay. It would make sense. But then I started to chat with a girl.. She was already an adult and one day, she invited me over to her house (she lived alone). I said okay, we were watching a movie and then we passionately kissed. I wish I could say something positive about it, but it was disgusting. Just that. I wanted to go home ASAP, I really didn't like it. I was attracted to her, it was mutual, but I just hated it. I don't get it.

But what now? I have tried both genders and I hated touching both. Do you think I may be asexual? It seems like I can like people, but I just don't like intimate touch. I'm just so confused I don't know what to do. I always thought I am just gay, but.. Maybe I was wrong.
I want to hear your opinion about it. (〜 ̄△ ̄)〜

Responses
    raindragon February 1, 2018 2:23 am
    When it comes to being ace, it's a pretty different experience for everyone. In my case, I just never felt sexually attracted to anyone, and never felt the desire to touch myself or someone else. Before I found... bookmunchies

    Being horny is not "wanting to rip someone's clothes off." That's ridiculous. It can be a subtle wish to have sex, or a strong desire, but wanting to rip someone's clothes off is extreme.

    My ex-husband never masturbated in his life till after the first time he had sex at age 18. No desire to masturbate doesn't mean you're asexual.

    You can't be felt-up by just anyone. It has to be someone you're sexually attracted to. That you haven't met anyone like that yet, doesn't make you asexual.

    Almost no one on the planet is "asexual." How likely is it that you're one of the asexual, less than 99.999999 percent of the population? You'll discover your sexuality soon enough. If not, think about joining the human race, how 'bout?

    In denying yourself access to discovering your sexuality at some point in the future, you deny yourself the greatest pleasure of human existence. Don't be a fool. Keep an open mind.

    raindragon February 1, 2018 2:54 am

    One more thing (for now, hehe) Still think you're asexual? When you're old enough, your gynecologist can prescribe a hormone cream that will help you find yourself sexually, and maybe even want to rip someone's clothes off.

    Yaoilynn February 1, 2018 2:53 pm

    Just as honest as I expected.

    I never said I was not young or experienced, as you predicted, it's the opposite.
    It's surprising that this confusement will never go away. My straight friends were never even doubting their sexuality. Well, I guess it's different for every single person.

    Yes, I am also that type of person, stress is there my entire life. I want to have a label. I am not saying I don't.

    I decided to just let it be. It doesn't need to be solved overnight. I refuse to have sex with just anybody to figure it out, it just needs time. Honestly, people are not making fun of me. Never. And trust me, I came out to lots of people including ones I've never met before and no one ever said anything bad about it. I don't know from what you judge your opinion, but the place and especially country where I live is so tolerant.



    Btw - English is not my native language either, but I am trying ┑( ̄Д  ̄)┍