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Wow this was amazing! It has its flaws as the author recognice, but still is really well w...

Mary May 3, 2018 9:30 pm

Wow this was amazing!
It has its flaws as the author recognice, but still is really well writen.
From the star i was expecting miki to die (well the tragedy tag give us the hint) and i love the idea (not bc i hated miki, in fact i love his character, but bc i love the drama if not why would i be reading this? lol) but at the very end i was wishing for his survival, i really do. guess i was ok with both hipotesis.
The final chapter was simply mindblowing, in a magnificent way.
I want to say that english is not my frist language and it became to long to correct in google translaor so excuse my mistakes i just wanted to coment all this bc i love it.

If we analaize the whole manga, is tatsumi-san who tell the story and that's why we read it based on his opinion and thougs, but at the same time we have his conversations with miki where we got as caugh in the trap as the protagonist (the seme)
From the very begining tatsumi express that he doesn't believe miki' stories, or he half believe them. When he found miki with his supposed sister, the first think he taugh was that they were holding hands, and that he was going out with her. (until this time he and we didn't knew that everything he tought was the real truth) When he tied miki and ask him about her and if he was in love with her and if that was the reason why the yakuza beat him up (again he was unconsiusly telling the truth), miki didn't say anything and made a sad face (we can assume he's thinking that he's just the lover with whom she cheat her husband and nothing else for her despite he loving her)
Tatsumi think that whatever that woman is, miki still cares for her, and that they have a deeper relationship than the one he has with him.

After that miki invent the whole story about their past which he himself calls a poor tv drama. (maybe he got the ideas for his lies from some)
The first time i read the penultime chapter i though when miki stop walking in that store to see a couple, that he wanted something like that (since they were talking how homo they look to go there i though he wants a romance like that) but after reading it calmly i notice that that wasn't the reason why he saw them with a sad face, but because they were similar to the woman and the yakuza, and that's why he feels bad seeing them all lovely dovely, when he was again just the lover with whom she cheat her husband.
In the same chapter tatsumi remember the last night and his conversation with miki, when he ask "why do your sister married a guy like him" again we see miki's sad face and didn't say anything.
Later miki vent out saying angrily this "maybe she could have gotten away if she had everything she had into trying" assuming he loves her, we can say he propse her to run away with his cheater and abusive husband but she didn't want it at all bc for her " his heart is in the right place" and that's why he think she's a stupid woman for continuing with that relationship.
But then tatsumi kiss him and his horizon expand, thinking that maybe he should give up on her and run away with tatsumi.
Finally the last chapter clears everything the first hint we had that the miki that appear outside jail is not the real one is his clothes and his nails, he looks exactly the same as the day he was stabbed three years before. lol xD
Then we have miki's sister and her son, not only he looks exactly like miki, but tatsumi also made us notice that this baby was seed at the right moment, born ten months after miki's death, so we can say that the night miki was waiting outside of his appartament was when he got her pregnant, her husband found out that they were together and torn off miki's nails. And also when tatsumi refers to her as miki's sister, she didnt say anything and looks exaclty like miki when tatsumi asked about her. Hence, she knew that that was the lie he tell to tatsumi. Lastly the millon ask, "who is the father?", ofc miki didn't knew she got pregnant (asuming she got it that night) and since he was a product of his imaginantion that miki would knew the same things as tatsumi. then he remember miki's final words that everything he say were lies, his past, his relationship with that woman and maybe, his desire to run away with tatsumi too. :(
so did he ask him to kill that man to run away with the woman? we never know...

what can i say about ryoma? is just as fake miki said, he had his life messed up because of tatsumi. (poor guy honestly) and after that he just want to use him again to kill the yakuza?
now, has tatsumi the right to kill him? i mean his wife was cheating on him so the yakuza has the right to beat miki, but also he cheat and abused his wife so he deserved to be in prison. ryoma went psycho just a moment and got to prision, but isn't tatsumi as insane as all of them? i mean he's planning and waiting for a murder, and he's deluding himself with a dead person. xD
What can i say this was fantastic. the only bad thing is that last chapter supposed to be comic that didn't fit here at all. (the author's words not mine but i totally agree)

Responses
    fin May 4, 2018 7:40 pm

    Wow you have made everything clear what is going on this manga. I think everyone who are still confused should read this.

    Ceejay May 6, 2018 10:03 am

    did the "I failed again" mean that the seme was asking ryouma to kill the husband?

    Mary May 6, 2018 11:57 pm
    did the "I failed again" mean that the seme was asking ryouma to kill the husband? Ceejay

    I didn't notice it until you pointed it out. This is really amazing each time i read it i discover something new xD

    If i had to say, i think part of his phrase refers to the fact that he was a completely failure since day one (or at least that is what he thinks of himself bc that is what his family constantly told him) but i do believe that, as you said, ryoma tried to kill the yakuza inside the jail for tatsumi's sake, but he coudn't. I think he did it on his own accord, since now he knows miki's backstory (from when the police had to discover why miki's nails were torned off and ryoma and tatsumi were seen as the culprits)

    I don't think tatsumi asked him to do so, (could it be tho) but he did said he's willing to use ryoma to kill the yakuza (when he'll finally get out of prison) since he knows ryoma would do anything for him. Ryoma is just his ace up his sleeve.

    trashbasketcase May 9, 2018 11:27 pm
    did the "I failed again" mean that the seme was asking ryouma to kill the husband? Ceejay

    I think when Ryouma said "I failed again" he meant he failed at killing Miki. Ryouma understands that Miki is still very much "alive" to Tatsuma.

    Caitlym July 29, 2018 8:10 pm

    To me, whatever you say at this point is fact so I have a question for you lol. Do you think Miki had feelings for Tatsumi even a tiny bit? And do you feel that Miki would’ve 100% ran away with the girl and just left Tatsumi behind or so you think maybe he could’ve stuck with Tatsumi since he was willing to go through all that trouble for him? Just wondering lol

    Aayaat August 23, 2018 8:35 am

    Thanks!! Love your explanation.

    Ceejay August 23, 2018 10:06 am

    oh im kinda confused, was the woman really her sister or not?

    Mary November 12, 2018 12:36 am
    oh im kinda confused, was the woman really her sister or not? Ceejay

    No, miki lied about that. They were lovers.

    Mary November 12, 2018 12:37 am
    I think when Ryouma said "I failed again" he meant he failed at killing Miki. Ryouma understands that Miki is still very much "alive" to Tatsuma. trashbasketcase

    That could be another possibility.

    Mary November 12, 2018 12:48 am
    To me, whatever you say at this point is fact so I have a question for you lol. Do you think Miki had feelings for Tatsumi even a tiny bit? And do you feel that Miki would’ve 100% ran away with the girl and j... @Caitlym

    Yes i think miki developed feelings for tatsumi as tatsumi also developed feelings for him, but he (miki) also loved that woman as far as to take all those risks to be with her.

    So if she would have willing to run away with him, he would have do it even if that would meant left tatsumi behind.

    But also, maybe when he was thinking of running away with tatsumi he really meant it, (hence giving up on that woman)

    sadly we'll never know.

    Mary November 12, 2018 12:53 am

    Also have you notice how in the last chapter, whenever tatsumi is talking to miki, people around him stare at him?. That's another hint that miki is dead, since people see tatsumi as some crazy guy who talks alone. I said it, each time i read this i discover something new. xD

    Anonymous November 24, 2018 4:06 am

    I don’t understand who is the baby’s father if he was born 10 months after Miki’s death that make so no sense. Should’nt it be 9 months because if it was 10 months there is no way Mike could be the father.

    Mary January 25, 2019 3:51 am
    I don’t understand who is the baby’s father if he was born 10 months after Miki’s death that make so no sense. Should’nt it be 9 months because if it was 10 months there is no way Mike could be the fath... @Anonymous

    In Japan pregnancy is usually calculated in lunar months (4 weeks = 1 month). Instead of the 9 calendar months, the pregnancy lasts 10 lunar months, which is actually the same, 40 weeks.

    Miki is indeed the father, plus the kid looks exactly like him.

    zoa April 18, 2019 4:15 am

    Thank you, thats clear and sad :(

    The story was good, I say is sad, really sad but if the ending not like that I must disappointed :"(

    Anji July 26, 2019 5:19 pm
    I don’t understand who is the baby’s father if he was born 10 months after Miki’s death that make so no sense. Should’nt it be 9 months because if it was 10 months there is no way Mike could be the fath... @Anonymous

    I agree. Mini and Tatsume were always together since the day Miki returned until the day he dies so i believe child was made before Miki came to Tatsumi’s house(*⁰▿⁰*)

    Marylost June 25, 2020 1:42 am

    OMG THANKS