PLEASE HELP ME FIND THIS YAOI GEM

Hi please help.. i'm looking for a yaoi where the seme really treasures the uke cause he had regrets from his previous male lover who he met in america during his college days (his rebellious days over his controlling father, he even got a tattoo on his arm) . The lover was a business associate of the seme's father. They basically hooked up and fell in love but the lover had obligations (arrange marriage) and didn't want to ruin the seme's future, so he left and got married. The seme was heartbroken, he his lover to never see him again when he (the lover) tried to explain. Then he went back to japan. A few years later he went back to america for business and found out that his ex-lover had died cause of a car accident. He visited his grave and met his ex-lover's wife with a kid. The wife greeted him (thinking he was a friend), but then she called her child which surprise the seme. The child was named after him and the wife explained that the name was very precious. Right before his death, apparently his ex-lover kept chanting the seme's name. Even the wife said that her husband probably loved him (the seme) more than her (she still doesn't know its him). From then on, the seme wanted to treasure the person he loves more since life is short.

I'm sorry i know this is so long but i've been searching for this manga for so long. Been dying to reread it but can't remember the name cause its been years. Thank you in advance for reading this :)