ur dad's too old to have kids at teens... sorry dude...but ur a second fam?
if no... lets move on...
choose the best answer...
A. Gun
B. Rope
C. Poison
u choose...
nah...juz joking...
stidy hard...be successful and move out of that hell hole, mate...
*study* fockin typo
I think I'll choose D. Poison Hemlock. Fuckin weed growing in the ditches.
Well, it's good to vent and your brother does look like he needs more discipline in his life. It's also okay to try and repair your bond with your family, but shoving their mistakes into their faces isn't the right way to do it. '^'
The driving thing is a good example. It's quite annoying when someone who doesn't drive tells you that you made a mistake 'cause either you were wrong because you don't have experience or your brother already knew he was wrong and didn't need someone to point it out. Instead of telling him he "almost" hit a car, you might want to tell him to take his time and go slower.
Never blame people. Give them advices instead.
make peace with ur parents and let ur brother be. considering the fact that u r 15 and he is 18 there is no way he is gonna listen to u anyway...its his life let him do as he pleases. u r not the one who's gonna fix the family, ur brother will leave home soon enough and i dont think that ur parents are breaking up anytime soon so everything's good.
about the suicidal thoughts: u wrote this long ass text about how much u care for ur family and u tell me that u r having suicidal thoughts? the one who's causing them problems rn is u. sorry for being harsh on u but u r too young to kill urself. everything might seem grey rn but u need to find something that makes u happy. life isnt always that great but there are always things that make us glad that we r alive.
Seems like you're living in a shithole.. there's nothing much you can do at that age.. though I'm not not to speak.
I mean, if you live in the USA (depending on your state), if you wait one year (because you're 15) and plan out your options you may be able to participate in the "emancipation of minors" thing.
Only if you want to of course.
Nah, I think his/her family is quite normal. If they neglected (or hit) him/her, that would be a real shithole.
Thank you for telling me that. I guess you're right about that. I just got a little too angry back there, but I needed to hear that.
About the driving thing... I wasn't telling him that he made a mistake. I was pointing out things such as a car coming when he was about to go or he was backing up but there was a car behind him. One time I pointed one of those things out and my mother told me to shut up, Bert said it was okay and justified since I was right, and really that was the only comfort I got out that situation.
I'm not pissed or anything but I am interested. How did I cause the problems? Please I really need to know, I want to fix this.
And while that is true that there are some things that make me happy in life, the reason I don't want to live it is because everything that would normally make a person happy (skydiving, traveling, having friends, having kids and a husband, etc.) has never made me really happy. Instead I see all that stuff as boring and pointless. It's not life when you aren't enjoying a thing about it.
Yeah I plan on doing that and getting a Japanese translator job. I've looked into that and I can get that at 16. One more year...
Thx for reminding me there is a way out of this shithole though.
-well its not that u cause problems is that ur parents are in a difficult position due to the fact that u visiting a mental hospital. i dont say that its ur fault or anything but just imagine how they must felt when they learnt about ur suicidal thoughts. every parent wants their children to be happy. ur parents are in a lot of pressure from all the things thats happening thats why sometimes they act recklessly (for instance yelling at u)...
-im not saying that is a bad thing that u want to help ur brother but ur brother is also in a difficult age (trust me) so he needs some time to adjust. if everyone is yelling at him he wont take anyone seriously. he needs to realise by himself that whats he's doing is wrong..
-when i was at ur age i felt the same way but as the time goes by u r gonna find something that u really want to do.. just tell urself that this is just a phase. think about u, living alone without any worries with a job that u want with the things that u want. rn u might be thinking that u dont want anything but then again whats the difference if u die? u'll just not exist anymore. not only ur body but ur mind ur ideas ur beliefs will dissapear...are u okay with that? as long as u r living there is always a hope for something better...when u die there is no hope there is no future its just emptiness.nothing. nothing is there. so u need to live! there will always be people who care about u and i know that u care about them too so at least for now make an effort for them (▰˘◡˘▰)
I know I just posted one yesterday, and if you want to waste your time, please skip this.
(I'm fifteen, my brother's 18 and my dad is 60 for reference)
A couple a weeks ago, my mother apologized because she FINALLY realized that MAYBE all the crap and gossip she would laugh about with my brother, who was even worse with gossip than my mother, was ACTUALLY triggering my suicidal thoughts and such. She promised she wouldn't do it anymore. (Everyone found out unintentionally and I had to go to a mental hospital for 8 days about three weeks ago. Only the other kids helped me realize things, but I HATED the hospital.)
Today, my dad was talking to my brother and that he needed to take responsibility for himself instead of clinging to mom (cuz that is what he does and he has REALLY low education because he won't do the schooling himself and instead ignores it. He also is no where near thinking of a job).
After dad leaves for work, Bert gossips about dad to ma. Even though they both know that's a fucking trigger.
I tell ma not to break promises she can't keep and she just said that she's okay with gossiping because she knows that Bert just failed the driving test this morning FOR THE THIRD FUCKING TIME and that he needed to "vent". He's not venting. He's laughing and gossiping about dad just like he does ALMOST EVERY FUCKING DAY FOR THE PAST 8 YEARS OR SO.
My brother blames my dad FOR EVERYTHING. Like, I realized recently that dad IS quite hypocritical, and I don't think he realizes a lot of that. And recently I'm trying to repair this stupid broken family because I WANT things to work out, I WANT us all to be happy. I love my dad, my mom for the past two weeks before she broke her promise today, and I DID love my brother FUCKING 8 YEARS AGO BEFORE HE STARTED ALL THIS SHIT AND CRAP.
I tell both of them that they need to stop blaming dad for everything and realize that THEY AS WELL have their own faults.
Then we veered onto another subject. When I was being taken to a psychiatrist shortly after I was discovered to have suicidal thoughts. One the way, Bert was practicing driving in a little quiet neighborhood. Every time I tried to nicely warn Bert about a car that could have hit him, ma told me harshly to "SHUT UP!" because SHE was the driving instructor and I WAS INTERRUPTING HER DRIVING LESSON. I was about to cry and my anxiety was shooting up the wall.
While we were arguing today, she said that she was justified because she didn't like another person speaking in the car while she was giving driving instructions and that it was okay for her to harshly tell me to shut up even though she knew I looked like I was about to fucking cry.
Oh and she never apologized for that.
I thought I was fixing things around here, guess I'm not. I think I might be going back to the mental hospital soon (๑•ㅂ•)و✧
Sorry to put all this drama on you guys, you really don't have to read or reply to this if you want to. Seriously, I probably shouldn't even be posting this. Sorry.