i have been there very recently my friend. it's a very complicated, sticky, shitty feeling.
my sister is beautiful, sexy, and outgoing. I am more a book nerd, on the average side.
My bestfriend was a very beautiful girl who gathered lots of attention even of boys from other schools.
People only notice me after I lost a lot of weight due to depression and she fell sick.
She died not long after and only then the attention shift on me, including from my crush. But then i realized, i cannot be with any of em because if so i will always be her shadow. So i applied for a university far from my home and dated guys who never seen my late bestfriend. I love my bestie, but i cannot stay forever as her shadow.
I know...
My situation was awful because my best friend was so pretty and candid, well at least puberty hits her like that... (We know each other all life, I mean maybe 15 years) In other hand, I always have tendency to be dark and inexpressive. All her pretendants were interested but when she rejected them, they talk to me and ¡oh surprise! They fell in love with me... Or more like I'm really like her one time they look at me...
The really really awful situation was I fell in love with her, you know I'm pansexual, really painful years.
And when I was giving up, we have another childhood friend throughout the years, he was a "gentleman", I thought maybe this is the right time, maybe all the years on pain were gonna be only a memory. But no, he confessed to me saying:
You are so pretty, I like you. She and you are really alike. (Because later I found he had feelings for her, but for that time she had a boyfriend, the boyfriend who harassed me later, because she broke with him and he found I was just like her and maybe in his mind he thought I would become her substitute because again I'm like her)
Honestly that broke myself, I don't feel anything anymore, all my life is just her... And it's not even her fault.
Sorry for my bad english...
I felt so bad about this, its either a happy ending and I shouldn’t be complaining. But something is off. What if that Hakushima guy is actually a gay as well? What if he never fall inlove with his sister in law? What if he accepted Natsuka’s feeling as well? That means Natsuka and Seno would not be together right now. I dont know. I’m so confused, but i can see the possibility of this happening.
And this manga has such a realistic beginning. Its like Natsuka be treating Seno like a trash and all. But at the end, he learned to love him as well. I hope the guy i like also notice me, lol. Cause they are just using me to get the attention of my bestfriend. She’s really pretty by the way. i look like a potato ╮(￣▽￣)╭