I too thought i wanted to go into the medical field growing up...then i got a job as a nurses aid at a children's home to see if i was cut out for it....i definitely was not. Seeing children dying all the time put a mental strain on me that i couldn't handle. I don't know where you're from but i know in the states you can start as a nurses aid without prior experience. Maybe you could try it out first?
I´m working as a therapist in a psychiatry. It´s sometimes difficult, but it´s also nice and funny.
Did you have some special moments in your interships? When you thought "I want to do this job"?
Back then in my internship in a psychiatry I had that special moment, when I thought, I want to do that job. I worked with a depressed woman, I helped her to braid a basket. On my last day I told her to be more confident. She said that´s difficult. I told her, if she will have a hard time in future, she should look at her basket and telling herself "I wasn´t confident in braiding a basket, but I was able to do it myself, so I´ll be able to face the other problems now". And then, I saw a glimpse of hope in her eyes. That was really awesome.
You know, in every medical field you face hardships, but you also have such beautiful moments. So, in which moments you thought "I want to do that job"? Or in which field your grades are better?
I had good moments when patients told me, that talking to me lightens their mood and some of them jokingly said that my smile is therapy enough... so it wasnt really connected to a special field. And another problem is, that taking my time talking to them, is a privilege that students have, since physicians are busy with other stuff (other patients, paperwork etc.). My grades are overall ok. I liked neurology the most among all of them but my internship was disappointing - doent mean Im giving it up completely, but it makes me reconsider things all over again

Are people here that work in the medical field? For a long while I've been wondering, which direction I should choose... my image of internist is that of being someone who only distributes pills but does not actually heal and I imagine that surgeons do have a healing aspect to them but I don't know if I'm cut out to be one (skill and lifestyle wise). I imagine working with sick children to be depressing and with psychological patients I think Id either be too empathetic towards their situation or too cold (and they don't need either). Does someone have any advice?