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That's too real. And the way you learned coping from it, too. The whole dynamic between Jisuh and Heejae , after Jisuh finds out and their talk on how Heejae knew and the changing and erupting dark feelings of Jisuh, when I read it again today it made me think about the whole different angle of reality people see from. And it's pretty amazing. I am not as layered and exclusive like Heejae and in some sense, Jisuh...so when I sink my mind into that kind of being, it seems very real and plausible. Pretty amazing.
I literally could hear the tone and understand ever way jisuh talked when he was getting his revenge on heejae. And the fact that I used to be suspicious of everyone I too also had my walls up and I couldn't trust people because people ain't shit but if i had to say that I stopped being one of these thing it would be suspecting people too much. I have my walls up because I don't trust people getting to close to me and now I act carefree because if I always took people to seriously I'd always have to be on edge and I would be alone. I never liked be alone then ppl started changing everything was changing for me so i wanted to be alone and that last for as long as I can remember and I'm only 14 about to turn 15, there was a time where I really didn't care for shit and then I fell in love which was my biggest regret because that boy was a player and that's when I took out my revenge(worked like a charm) but then I realised that I still had feelings for him but I brushed it off because I don't give second chances. I just know that getting revenge does you no benefits. And being to suspicious is just like thinking to much and you get side tracked from the good things that happen right beneath your nose. Don't let bad things hold you down too long because you'll miss what life owes you and everyone deserves to be happy even the bad people. Plus I keep hearing this but forgiveness is something that you do for yourself and if someone tells you to forgive them that's entirely up to you.