Hi dear, it looks like you are a high school student. It’s just a phase now you are all confused with small things about what others think of you and that you want others to acknowledge you. But it’s ok. Just be comfortable with your body, keep a bit of distractions with you all the time like reading, listening songs, drawing. Sometimes crying is really helpful. So it’s ok.
Hi dear, it looks like you are a high school student. It’s just a phase now you are all confused with small things about what others think of you and that you want others to acknowledge you. But it’s ok. Just be comfortable with your body, keep a bit of distractions with you all the time like reading, listening songs, drawing. Sometimes crying is really helpful. So it’s ok.
when you become an adult person, you can look back and see it as a small problem. Others face a lot of bigger problem than that and still fighting to live in this world. So keep your mind positive, study well and stand on your own. Body shape changes so will be looks. Study as much as you could then leave the rest to god. Thinking about it will leave you thinking more about it. So study and also make time for rest and distractions with your hobbies. Do what you like and don’t think about others. Be happy (●'◡'●)ﾉ
hi i don’t really know you. but after reading your comments i can totally relate to you. i have major exams coming up and all i can do is overthink. i try to study but i don’t think i’m good enough academic wise. my classmates are doing better than me and they cheer me on and stuff. but i cant help but think it’s all false hope. every since quarantine i’ve lost motivation in school, i still try to get good marks, but i cant find that same motive i had during the beginning of school. i also love drawing and i’ve been trying to draw these days, but i’m so unsatisfied with any artwork i do and just throw it away. i’m sensitive about the topic of weight. i had issues with my weight and i still do. though i don’t know you and i just happen to read this random comment. i say these words of encouragement to others when i cant even say it to myself haha. but i’m rooting for you, maybe you need someone to relate to and i’m here. i’m going through immense stress right now and i just want it to stop. also those friends who make fun of you don’t really seem like friends. i know how it feels to have acne, and to be made fun of. it hurts, but i got through the pain by relating to someone. idk if you’ll see this, but i hope things do get better for you.
i honestly think that you might have some sort of anxiety. i don’t wanna diagnose you but i would definitely go and get a doctors opinion once quarantine is over. i don’t know who you are or what you look like, but from what you wrote i can tell your a very nice and sweet person. who cares what other people think about you. if someone is openly spreading hate then they are just insecure. there is no reason to take anything mean that someone says to you to heart. it might hurt when someone calls you names, but who gives a fuck. just work on bettering yourself so that you could prove to the haters that’s you aren’t like what they describe you to be. i would also try talking to your friends. if they say they were only joking and that they don’t understand why your sad, then drop them. if your friends can’t consider your feelings then they are just being toxic. if they really cared about you then they would work with you to keep the friendship. i don’t wanna label your friends since i don’t know them, so you should make the decision on whether they are good or bad friends. i also think that you should stop overthinking. that’ll lead to even more anxiety and can make you really stressed. (i don’t know if you’ll ever see this or not, but if you do then it would be great if you posted your insta so that we could dm and i can help you through tough times. and i swear i’m not a creepy 40 year old man lol)
Hey so maybe don’t listen to tatso here because it’s not “a phase”. People are being genuinely rude and bullying you over your appearance and under no circumstances should you let this happen to you. stand up for yourself even in small ways. these friends of yours are really toxic and I went through the same thing when I was in middle school, always the butt of the joke and i sincerely thought it was okay because we were still friends and we hung out and I was never alone, until I realized something that changed my whole outlook on them. I had figured out that had been hanging out with out me this whole time. now in middle school this was a hella big deal because I had bought gifts with my o w n money for these girls and I find they’ve been talking about me behind my back for MONTHS. I broke it off immediately and stopped talking to them. the last 2 months of 7th were equivalent to hell for me, but I entered 8th grade a whole new person. I cut them off and I never thought twice about it. im in high school now and yeah quarantine sucks and schools are barely helping us but what’s good is now you don’t have to talk to them. ignore their texts and calls and boom just like that you are no longer under their reign. your in a sport so if this is a team sport you should definitely make friends within the team no matter how hard it is. see if you have things in common with them and grow from your past experiences to become stronger and not let people step all over you. get violent, you’re in high school and nothing bad will happen to you, get mean, so you don’t get oppressed. but all in all, know that you are perfect because you are you :) (unless you wear cat ears to school in that case I can’t help you here.)
Hello :)) I think you should look for better friends tbh. People who’ll lift you up, give you confidence, and love you for who you are. Don’t let anyone define you and ofc that’s easier said than done. It’s okay to hurt from these things and it’s okay to want to cry. No one can handle what you’re enduring and no one should be. Try to find a safe haven whether it’s music or drawing like the person above said^ or maybe even one single good friend. To be honest I didn’t even find a good friend until I was 16 and it changed my life. I realized that the people I was hanging out w were terrible people who didn’t care ab themselves or me. No one should be alone in what you’re enduring :(( It’s very likely to start degrading yourself when everyone around you is constantly beating you down. Don’t look for acknowledgment from the wrong people for they will bring you down unfortunately. And just because what you are enduring is a phase doesn’t make your pain invalid. Many teenagers go through hormonal changes at this point in their lives and it’s an extremely stressful time. It’s hard to say this but I just wish you a little love in your life because no one and I said NO ONE is going to love you as much as you love yourself. Do sum self love hun. Work your ass off in the things you want accomplish. Prove to yourself and to everyone in the world that you deserve everything lmao. This is sooo hard I understand and there’s totally no reason why you should listen to me but I just want to be there for you because it’s hard being alone and I understand that. I grew up basically alone with a single mother who was never around and an older sister who hated me and beat me up all the time LMAO. I didn’t have any “friends” and I was miserable every single day of my life. But I picked my shit up because there’s no one else to that for me. You don’t need to be perfect and that’s on God hun. Make mistakes but don’t be upset over them. You gotta grow from them that’s why they’re there. All of these things take time it’s a process like art. I also do art but I don’t get along with it lol Bc I tend to seek for the immediate end result which totally wrong. Once I see that it’s messed up in the beginning stage I don’t want to draw anymore or continue it. This is why I never finish most of my art OOF :((( but I’ve learned that the ugly and messed up stages are also the process to make it beautiful. Being confident is..... like hard I keep saying hard I’m sorry . But if you learn to understand that you’re worth more than what people belittle yourself for, you can stick up for yourself with confidence bc you know darn well that what they say don’t mean SHIT to you baby girl. I can totally understand that what I’ve said is difficult to do but life isn’t easy nor is it fair. That’s why you gotta do what you gotta do. My advice might totally wrong for you and it is what it is because it’s different for everyone. Ultimately I just wish you the best and to enjoy the small things in life because they make a difference. NEVER GIVE UP ON YOURSELF!!! NEVERRR because I believe in you. And if you want I can give you my info and you can txt about literallyyyyy anything j to get your mind off things or whatever lmao. J send me a response if you want it :))) wish you the absolute best with love
Its normal to cry, let it out and take it easy....it is pretty hectic and i too am very lost with this online school i think my uni will get extended even during summer though .......My only advice is dont take it to heart what others say but also tell your friends or anyone who is mean how you really feel ,because i think sometimes people dont get it that they can hurt others with what they say :/ and if they do it so they can hurt you fuck them (╬￣皿￣)凸 also i know that may have hurt your selfesteem but you seem like a really beautiful person so be strong and about being overweight its ok i mean its something that should concern only you not others if they dont like it they can (︶︿︶)＝凸 its something that you can change later if you want to be more fit :) also about your studies me on the other hand i get really numb when the exam stress gets me lol i dont even have tears but you will do it like always step by step ٩(๑❛ᴗ❛๑)۶ good luck
Thanks for the advice :D i think im going to try out more art :")
Thank you soo much for the encouragement :D though its a relief that someone relates to me, it still sucks that we are both so stressed and stuffs >:( i hope things go better for you too! You got this :DD
Thank you so much ive been trying to drop them for a while now tbh HAHA but im not a really independent person... i often rely on people and though i hate it admit it, these people who constantly hurt me are also people i sometimes rely heavily on in school. (I mean of couse not emotionally HAHA but like on school work and things like that) we have been friends for almost 4 years and the thought of cutting the friendship off relieves me but stresses me out at the same time. Like what if i actually do need their help in the future? Or like what if i'm just being petty. Something like that
Thanks so much for the advice :DD and regarding the sports thing... bad news is that 2 of my "amazing" friends are in the same team ah me o.o my team has a lot of drama because our personalities clash a lot so despite being in the same team for years, we never really had that connection that other teams had :/ alsoo ive been ignoring their texts and calls too! Which is pretty great for me because i rarely do that HAHA the thing is that im actually a really introverted person... kind of
Thanks so much for all the encouragement and advice lately i think i've found better friends :D though theyre all guys, they treat me with respect. Though they still do tease me a bit, they still apologise if they think they went overboard. If one of them doesn't realise, another guy from the group would tell him that what he said was too much. Though i feel bad for one of them... he's also in a pretty toxic friend group at the moment and because he recently got close to me and is actually treating me nicely, they keep on calling him a simp. Though it is a joke and stuff like that, the fact that he's being made fun of my so many people because he treats me kindly is kind of annoying... :") also if you want, you can dm at on my insta @exobishh i'd love to draw some things with you when i have the time :D sorry if my personality is pretty bland though...
Thanks for the encouragement and calling me a beautiful person hehe HAHAH the weird thing about me is that even though i feel like crying, i can't even let out a single tear though i'm alone
you will be ok (▰˘◡˘▰)
Thanks :DD (⌒▽⌒)
I’m having goosebumps! Why do we almost have alike situation? I don’t know if this will help but we are pretty much the same but I don’t do sports but I’m planning to but I’m a gym-person at the moment. Let me tell you mine.
I started narrowing the reasons why I had suicidal thoughts. And here are the reasons:
1. I was competitive because I was always being compared to. The one thing that keeps me going was my performance in academics and when I tried to change my personality due to people hating me, I started feeling worse because my performance dropped.
2. I don’t have someone in my family, even my parents, which I could tell my problems in my program in college when I had the trouble with my design class. I barely passed every design class.
3. I was very concerned with my body that I don’t even want to go outside to the Malls because I look ugly because even my face has a lot of pimples.
4. I felt inferior to my younger brother because even professionals at my field were praising him. Even my dad, who has the same field as me, weren’t like that towards me but only to my brother.
5. My parents are disappointed in what I do in life. They don’t support the fact that I like Multimedia arts than Architecture. In the end I took Architecture because they said it was safer.
6. I felt alone.
7. I felt not important to my parents at all and they both have favourites within my brothers.
8. My mom once told me, “You’re not talented at all.”
My suicide thoughts intensified that there are times I would lock myself up crying in my bedroom, or I imagine myself jumping on the balcony or sometimes I stared at the knife at the kitchen. My college friends noticed the changes in my personality, I was always mad and silent. I would shut down myself until there was a day I decided to go to church, I heard our pastor said, “Smile even when you’re hurt. You’ll notice a bit of pain will gradually disappear. Surrender your fears and sadness to Almighty God, he will listen to you. He does not give you problems in life which you couldn’t solve.”. It was too on point for me that I almost cried on my seat.
The first thing I prioritize was my body and I’m proud of when I started dieting during christmas vacation, and people who knew me on the school were shocked how I went from 32 inches waist to 27.5 inches. I gained self confidence as I could finally, wear some styles to express myself. I am constantly going to gym nowadays to improve my body and health.
I surrounded myself with positive people and some upperclassmen, besides my friends. I also joined an organisation and become officer. My upperclassmen gave me their life advice on how I would deal with my problems and from that I started to test it out on my life. But I started to be cautious a bit because they may be giving good life advices but sometimes I was drawn to their not-so-good side which was going to bars, smoking and drinking. But in the end, my friends were where I feel content. I just need more various perspective from people on how they dealt things and build connections.
With my problem with my brother who I felt inferior, I started to succumb myself to arts, may it be paintings, sketches, webtoons— the things I really loved doing. Of course I wouldn’t let myself to be not good in Architecture, I started thinking of ways to cope up with what I have and not care with the advantages of others.
My friends were also a huge help when they told me I could rant my sad life on them as they were too. Then we started to heal each other. We would sometimes go on road trips to unwind. And sometimes road trips with yourself alone is quite fun. It’s like taking a break from everybody. (Introvert mode)
More importantly, now I had that mindset that if ever nothing good happens, always think that there’s a higher being up there who will gonna provide me everything as I submit and repent my sins to him. (Here I am, having this comment to a BL webtoon. LOL.) Just tell Him all your sadness, it’s just like writing down your worries on a paper. It really helps me calm down.
Gradually, I started feeling contented in my life. And now, almost my constant sadness were gone. My self rehabilitation were gradually taking effect.
That’s all. Thank you for reading! I hope everyone who were sad will find their solution to break from it. ヾ(☆▽☆)
Thanks for sharingg. Woahh our situations really are similar o.o i also went to church and the topic for our cell session was self worth. We were told to talk to the cell leader individually once we thought of the things we were discontented with about ourselves. I'm a person who hates it when others see me cry but when i started to tell her about my problem which i kept quiet about for so long, i couldn't help but breakdown in front of her HAHA. I gotta admit, i really want to diet too but my self control is pretty bad ._. I'm slowly trying to lose weight but it keep on bouncing back to my original weight
Cell sessions are fun! I’m part of a cell group too. But I’m still awkward in sharing and testimonies. It’s really hard to lose weight especially when I’m stressed! Hahaha (￣∇￣")
Same o.o i'm pretty new to my cell and i still feel pretty awkward among everyone :") but they treat me soo kindly and welcome me so it doesn't feel weird :D
Hello, sorry but this isn't related to the manga :( i just would like some advice or opinions maybe :")
So basically i've been struggling lately. Ive cried twice at like 1 am for 2 consecutive nights. I know that its not something serious since it is pretty common, but its very unlike me to act like this... ive always found it tough to cry, even when i'm alone. I usually have a lot of control over my emotions... i think HAHA. Anyways, many people have made the statement like "thoughts that keep me up at 3 am" and things like that. In the past i never really understood that sentence and just assumed it was things like remembering an embarrassing thing you did in the past. But now i think i kind of get it? When im trying to sleep, i start thinking of my fears. My major examinations are nearing and i'm really worried i'm going fail and retain. Thought i know that retaining is not something that is shameful, but i cannot help but be afraid. Especially with quarantine and all, my classes are online and i keep getting distracted. I'm falling behind on my work too :( it feels like everyone is going to surpass me in everything. I am one of those lucky people who do pretty well in class but i can't help but think things like "who do you think you are? Just because you did better than them now doesn't mean that you will be better forever. You're probably going to be the one that's retaining and not them." Sometimes i get so scared and stressed that i cry and that means that i'm REALLY stressed because i rarely cry anyways. When i try to tell people that im stressed like my school friends, they tell me to shut up because im "smart" and that i have no right to be stressing over my results. But i'm human too ... its almost as if i have no right to feel these things :( its not like my results are extremely consistent either. Anyways, aside from studies, my classmates are an issue too. I am the type thats really kind, so im an easy target to teasing. A bit is fine... but sometimes even when they go overboard, i keep my mouth shut. I just don't want to see that awkward look and a dejected "i'm sorry' coming from them. I am someone who is bigger in size... basically im fat :") but im not overweight though. I know im big sized so i understand if people make fun of my weight. But A LOT of people do... i twisted my ankle once during a competition. But i ignored it and played 2 more games over a course of 2 months. Eventually it got really painful so my mom got my an ankle guard to help support my ankle. When i came to school with it, 2 guys asked what happened and i just said i sprained it. They started to make fun of my by saying that im so fat that my body is unbalanced that's why i sprained it. They aren't even people i'm close to :/ i just laughed it off and hoped that they would stop after one day, but they kept on going at it. Eventually i just tried to avoid their table at all costs and avoid eye contact. I know that it's my own fault for not standing up for myself so i guess that i'm also to blame for this HAHA. Sometimes i make it really obvious im annoyed at things (at least i think i make it obvious, apparently not though :") ) but they still continue. Even my close friends... they make fun of my weight, my looks, my acne, my everything basically. I was even criticised for the sport i play because it's "easy" and so easy to get into finals unlike other sports. Everyone just doesn't seems to know my limit... they cross the line so casually and cut my self esteem apart so happily like its a hobby of theirs. Then they just leave me so hurt. Then they wonder why i take hours to reply them. They got offended that i'm starting to find a new group of friends who know how to respect me. They even get angry that i'm spending time with people i'm closer to. One of them even gets mad that i go out with other people who i barely meet anymore when ive spent countless hours with her already. I openly compliment my brothers by saying they're handsome and things like that( which is true :) ). I honestly only say things like that because i think my brothers are amazing and that they deserve the praise. But then my amazing friends come along and say "then what happened to you?" I know im ugly. I know im fat. I know im never going to be as smart as them. But please stop. I know im the disappointment of my family. They always get awards in both academics and sports while im that fat, dumb kid that can barely do anything well. I just... hate it so much. I hate them and i fking hate myself too :"). Ngl, sometimes i even feel like my family doesn't know where to stop with criticism. Don't get me wrong. I love my family with all my heart and i will not condone it if anyone criticises them. But sometimes the things they say really hurt me. I really like drawing and i was drawing out something once. I thought that it was pretty nice... after all it was a really popular fan art so i just tried to draw it out on paper. When i showed it to my family, they just said that "once you get to even half of your father's talent then talk to me" :/ i just wanted some praise... even a half hearted one like "nice" would've been enough, but i guess not huh :"). My brother said i have a lot of blubber earlier on... clearly implying that i'm a whale... haha i guess. Then he asks why i'm mean when he didn't even disturb me. Okay then. Anyways, all in all, i really wonder whether i'm just going through a phase in my life where im overly sensitive or i actually have something a bit more serious... probably not though. I basically always have the urge to cry. Like almost all the time. Its really weird i know HAHA. Once, i planned out a whole thing to try and kill myself due to stress but of course i quickly got rid of that thought once i realised what i was thinking about. Its not that i want to die or anything (sorry if this is in any way offensive) but i just find no meaning in my life. I keep repeating the things i do. I don't really have any goal or motivation to do anything. I feel like i'm just existing. Even things like art that i somewhat enjoy. I'm not great at it so i know i can never make a living out of it. I don't have a hobby and i don't particularly enjoy anything to be honest... its pretty weird. Like i know that i'm happy like when i'm out with the friends i like and things like that. But when its over i just... don't really feel anything anymore. Ok i think i've typed too much HAHA if you've read till here then thank you so much for reading about my bs :") i hope you have a great day!! :D