Ya girl keep on dreaming(づ￣ ³￣)づ
It seems awesome except irl it means coming home from a shit party (early-not even staying late) & following bloody paw prints from ur cat walking through your boyfriends blood only to find his message to you (written in his own blood) "I am God and vengeance is my name". Then when u try to cal 911 he cuts the cord with a butcher knife and points it at you. When u come back m from the neighbors he's passed out and spends three days in the ICU on life support bc he's also swallowed a bottle of benzos. All bc u went to a shitty party without him. Or he stabs you with a butter knife or he wakes u up with a knife at your throat. I used to be all about crazy jealous guys a & I found my psycho prince wrapped up in my teenage ideal. Waist length hair, big eyes, ripped jeans & band tshirt w flannel tied around his waist, with the body of a heroin addict->I know my taste is strange and specific. He's an actual heroin addict now but I got some crazy memories and a great kid out of it but the stress of it will probably lead to premature aging. His new wife gets the messages in blood now-although less melodramatic and more succint--> "fuck you bitch" and unfortunately when he od's she calls me for help. Crazy love just never works for long.
I'm scared holy
i don't care if it doesn't make any sense, i just wish to have somenone like chiharu by my side, I mean, his love is insane!!!! but insanely delicioussssss