I mean we don't get to dictate this fictional character's trauma. Only the author can say the level of trauma for their character since even in real life it varies. I can easily that trauma especially on this subject is different for everybody. I think that you just didn't like it due to what you had seen and you preferred him in a romantic relationship. (i do to but I'm not going to hate on this or the people who chose to like and read this.)

What the hell this is horrible and disgusting have you seen banana fish bc this is disgusting knowing ash's trauma youre a horrible human i am not gonna read this but i want you to know that