Please help

I am looking for a yaoi about a uke who doesn't have any friend and doesn't smile while the seme who work with him tell him that he will be his friend and so later the seme fell in love with the uke and kiss him but the uke refused but after he was kissed by a model and he saw himself in a magazine he call the seme and tell him that it is not like what it is and then he go vist the seme and tell him that like him. I think the uke was called hajima