So I'm trying to find this bl i don't know if its a smut or no but the story is about college students. And at the middle of the story the top suddenly got taller than the bottom because at the bigging of the story the bottom is much more taller or at the same hight of the top. That's everything that I remembered about that story...... Please help me I have been trying to find this for yearrsssss

Can you guys recommend me something that will make me depress??? Or just your favourite manga/manwha/etc.?
About death is very sad
Also horizon
The horizon *
starry sky makes me depressed af ╥﹏╥
All of these left me feeling empty
https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/my_broken_mariko/
https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/birthday/
https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/sora_o_daite_oyasumi/
https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/the_specific_heat_capacity_of_love/
‘To you the immortal’ I think more commonly known now as To Your Eternity (or smth) made a deep deeep pit in my heart/stomach that left me sad/anxious the following few days, maybe because I don’t do that well with angst, I still binged read it cuz i couldn’t put I down but dropped it the moment it got to a peaceful spot before entering another big arc,
https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/to_you_the_immortal/
https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/the_paper_plane_which_is_under_the_rainbow/
this one made me bawl my eyes out
i was thinking about life after this
https://www.mangago.me/read-manga/classmate_asada_nemui/
That was heartbreaking..... ಥ‿ಥಥ‿ಥ
Ahahaha..haha....hahahhhahaha.... ༎‿༎
don't forget to read the specific heat capacity of love to cry even more lmao