I once saw this in a video: "if you piss in a cup - doesn't matter how much sugar you add in later. There's still piss in that cup"
Like sure this tastes sweet at the end. But damn, that piss.
Lmao I'm not even trying to moralize/preach over here or anything... that just be how it feels - to me (I say, having skipped over exactly 0 of the smut lmao)
"I kinda remembered it being better the first time I read it, but I was younger and didn't really understand the severity" are you me? Lol
I've had this experience so many times; remembering/noting down a story as sth nice and then you come back and it's just... not. Everytime it has me like damn things really do change, wtf was in my head then xD
This has one of the most unique cases of attempted rape that I've ever read, because of the combination of those factors:
- the previous master probably didn't mean to force him, as he sobers up when he sees how frightened our MC is and stops
- rather than pure lust, it seems the previous master is actually emotionally attached to our MC ... I'm not sure if that was already the case when the MC was 15 as much as it is now but either way, interesting
- our MC is grateful towards the previous master, he doesn't resent him but doesn't wholeheartedly forgive him or sth either.
It just makes it seem so... I dunno, human and realistic? As in, people make mistakes but when they're in full control of their mental facilities, they're more likely to not do the shitty thing. Plus feelings for people you have interacted with for a long time may be complicated, gratitude and hurt mixing and leaving a gray area of "not exactly on good terms but not the opposite either".
I scroll down to the end of the chapter, and see her grown up look. She's so gorgeous. She doesn't seem to have particularly unique or striking features - her colors are common too - but she is really, really pulling them off.
I just wanna look at her more~ she has that mature, composed and slightly regal air about her. It's like when the exterior of someone doesn't seem all too special, but the way they're carrying themselves just makes you think they're one of a kind.
I love, l o v e this picture (≧∀≦)











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