That was nicely executed, no?
Thinking you're meant to be a hero, so you act like one and feeling like it's just beyond your fingertips, so you put a little MORE effort, even though maybe that isn't morally pure anymore, so well, why not push some more, indeed, after all this work you DESERVE a good outcome, no? That wasn't a downfall, that was a trickle
I'm so goddamn unreasonably proud of this fictional character going "console me" to his boyfriend instead of looking for the same comfort he'd been finding at the bottom of several bottles
If they use Ilyan staggering around in a feverish haze to redeem his mantlepiece abomination of a father, imma pitch a hissy fit
This isn't THAT original and all, but I will still always gravitate towards deadpan characters (yes, now I know why, it's fine).
But my heart went WIDE for her the moment she was all:
*clenches fist*
"Let's ruin it"
*sabotaged by perfectionism*