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i hope this is the last time i will talk about him..

i still wish him a good life, i hope everythings work out for him. but thats all. im good without him tho its a little lonely but im going to be better. i will love myself to the point that i wont need anyone or man to fill this void in my heart.

i just know that one freaking day he will unfollow/unfriend me on his socmed thats the day i will dif. heal and moved on from this shit.

but maan, i hope i really heal from this shit. i dont want to stuck with this shit. I WANNA HEAL SO FUCKING MUCH LIKE IM BURNING NOW! this is the sign that im craving for ..

but i will lie if i said that im willing to risk it all with him, i wanted to talk to my friends that we talked again and work things out if he do the same.. but i really cant blame him if he dont want to publicize our rs.

but hey i brought it out on myself. and i dont want to blame myself for that bcoz i know that i only distance myself from him bcoz i know its not gonna be good to keep our rs like that. i dont want to hide my rs to my friends

- repeiting everything again.. THERES NO WAY THAT I WILL ALLOW MYSELF AGAIN TO SUFFER LIKE THAT! i knew better now and i wanna be good for myself you know.. i've been too hard to myself i need to love myself more. im quite good where i am now. i do feel a little bit lonely hahaah

LIKEEE HELL HAHAHAHHAHA!! but i do feel a little relief when i saw that he unfollow me or unfriend me. thats mean the connection that we had for almost 5 years is now ending.. im quite sad i literally wanted everything to work out but i dont think im okay with feeling like im --

i just discovered that he unfriend me on my socials, not to sound bitter but i do feel bitter hahahahaha i mean that dude didnt even unfollow the girl who fcking tell him that he is "irk" but me who been there for him for almost 5 years of his life LOL! hahahah now thats hurt --

hi, this is me again. ranting about my messed up lovelife hahaha. anyways hrrmm i decided to stop feeling this way again, i dont want to be hurt anymore.. i keep going back to those days that i spent crying for hours and hours.. im too scared to go back and start again.