Even tho it's so awful everytime I read this arc, it's always nice to see this sudden depressive side of Moondae. It gives him more depth to his character and it shows that no matter how smooth sailing he is currently going, one way or another, the stress of maintaining this stability would come and bite him so hard in the ass later when he least expects it. You'd think he'd always be lowkey and chill but then sudden shit like this happens to him and what he does as a response is not some kind of plan to fix it but to punch or strike his head on to some hard shit and panic about it so much.
It's alright guys, Gold 1 hyung's gonna be fine and will be debuting around after TeStar debuts. Though, it's probably right we still need to feel concerned about him cuz frankly, he got the short end of the stick with his group and his after situation. (He has a more important role in the novel as you may think!)
Is it fucked up of me to want to have them end up together? Like, not in a creepy "I wanna f my sister/brother" way, but just let them hug it out or something, Mai reveals she understands him (like a Will & Hannibal type of shit), and then they get to some kind of compromise.
I really hope that Mai ends up being the one to lock him away first, in a way it tells Makoto that she knew about him all along and that she's much more similar to him and understanding of him then he believed (because she is kind of messed up let's be honest)