I have so many manga's downloaded and I keep them on hold oddly enough I feel like im running out so Im asking
Im in need of Really hardcore smut romance(with happy ending) like both need to love eachother I don't mind if it starts with rape=love .
something like bi no isu and its sequel kobi no kyoujin (the art was adorbs) and the love was pure and beastly might I add
Im in need with something that also have a good plot and longer then 3 volumes
and lastly this is very hard for me asking this since I avoid this type and I put deep thought to it (i know crazy right)
if there is a romance so deep and so lovely like in (ito-san) (prostitute-assassin plot) and if its a tragedy but at least it has to be long its a bonus if they die in each others arms i don't like it when one left behind (or something like itso san where your imagination can run wild and think that there is a way for them to get together,
I once read sakura gari the end slapped me in the face but the story left me with odd feelings i kinda had the hate/love feeling for that one
and if its not to much can you tell me if it has a happy ending or not
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/kuroneko_kareshi_no_asobikata/
seriously one of my faves
im looking for a yaoi manga that has a uke who is not confident with his body and the seme would kiss those parts like kissing the scars and telling him how beautifull it is
tbh it doesn't need to be scars but it would be great if it would be a body image
and major low self esteem
I want love and pure love with a weak uke and gentle seme
a love that makes your heart goes doki doki and smile like a crazy bastard on crack
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/kodomo_wa_tomaranai/
But the uke's not that weak
try ten count
i have downloaded many many many manga's and when I look at my manga folder it will be a surprise everytime i open one up I remember downloading one that i want to read and i forgot the name for it , since its a big hassle im looking for the title
also any other recomendations would be great
what Im looking for right now is like this
" The dude is older or something and has a younger uke (im not sure to be honest im assuming it) and the older one does look for other sexual partners just for his relief
despite loving his uke (he is waiting for him to grow up) and although the uke is fine with it (i think) he is trying to make the seme looking at him sexually " since my english is messed up epecially after not sleeping for 2 days I hope its clear"
where the uke was raped once before (not by seme) and he gets traumatized
and the seme helps him by being gentle ofcours not right immediately he tries multiple times but if the uke says STOP then he actually stops
not the type of he gets raped and shit im late for my lesson in school and he forgets all about it a realistic one preferred
with moments like whenever the uke gets touched he thinks of the "bastard" and then the seme goes like "well I make u feel real good that you don't remember the bastard but me instead" or I'll clean where he dirtied you type of thing
also they don't need to ONLY show love with sex but even have naked hugs or kisses or just actually sleep together without the banging
(writing this made me feel so perverted lol)
or any other manga where the seme is trying to force himself but stops when he sees the uke cry he stops and hugs him and ask for forgiveness
I would also love to see one like "cut" or "Ten Count" (like not liking to be touched and the seme works hard for him)
I rather see one that has completed or more then oneshot I don't like to read a short manga that ends too soon
im a sucker for traumatized uke's or sad ukes with phobias (any type of phobia) that find happiness with the seme but it has to be revolved around the phobia not just a One time mention of it
oh and happy ending is a must or an open ending where you can at least imagine them getting together and if they die or something they have to both die together in eachothers arms not one left behind
I've been looking for a long time and even the lists don't show what im looking for
sorry for the long question
Have you read http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/brother_x_brother/ ? Maybe it's not EXACTLY what you requested, but there's tragic past, trauma and seme that works hard to help his uke (it's also quite long, with nice developement and plot!)
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/amayakana_toge/
This is nice too http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/hatsukoi_wa_gunjou_ni_tokeru/
You can also try these, but only if you won't find anything better xD (I don't mean they're not good, but may not satisfy all your needs; I focused on trauma/tragic past)
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/kanashii_kotoba/
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/senya_ichiya_shitone_no_himegoto/
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/koukyuu_no_arika/
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/shiawase_no_category/
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/sagatte_omachi_kudasai/
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/hatsukoi_wa_gunjou_ni_tokeru/ ? hopefully this would be good!!! i enjoyed this one a lot ;-; you might have read this already though.....
the funny thing is I was kinda thinking I might have gotten sick or something because of my sleep deprivation but I (no joke) see the pictures move like a short second when I read something in the top right I can see slightly moving mouth or something below the page I was like what? is this gif or something? when I check it nothing happens thats how much I dont sleep LOOL (⊙…⊙ ) but it only happens when I don't sleep for more then 24 hours and the lights are dimmed
yeaah I totally get you this happens alot with me.
Im actually someone who functions better when I stay awake .but once Im in bed I don't remember when I fell asleep.
im like oh its 2:12 I should probably go to sleep by 2:30 ....shit its 3:45 ok at 4 ....then omg its 6 never mind I'll go when I go XD and then it takes me to the day after and I tell myself ...ok I'll sleep early tonight and then the whole cycle begins untill nothing is left
Same! I always tell myself "oh, I gotta sleep early today" etc. then of course I don't. I'm also insomniac, so even if I go to bed I may not sleep, just lay and stress out. So why bother.
I also get what you say about functioning better without sleep, sometimes I'm so full of energy and excited, my blood pressure rises and I can do a lot, so I want to continue for as long as possible until I'm almost dead xD
Hey. I really recommend this manga - http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/new_york_new_york/ There are almost everything. In the beginning seme is stupid and bad, but don't stop reading, because there is a lot more after it.
Also, i think this mangas contains some things you want:
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/love_mode/ - loved it, its maybe not exactly what you are looking for, but there is rape (i do not count one in 1st chapter)
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/gekai_no_okiniiri/
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/kimi_no_naka_de_nemurasete/
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/senya_ichiya_shitone_no_himegoto/ - not rape, but a lot of mental problems and trauma
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/tsumaranai_otoko/ - ch. 3
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/hana_to_ryuu/ - i loved it
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/love_home/ - don't treally remember, but i think it is somthing like you are looking for
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/kimi_no_naka_de_nemurasete/ - also like above
Maybe this http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/nichijousahan_bi_beautiful_life/ and this http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/kinjirareta_taion/ and this http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/takumi_kun_series/
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/makkurayami_de_kimi_to/ - uke scared of darkness
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/dog_style/
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/mezase_hero/ - rauma after rape. A lot more in vol. 2
I do not know if everything will suit your taste, bust you can check it out.
Okay, i have a list of rape, attempt of rape, trauma, abused ukes etc. Some are not like you are looking for, but there ale a lot that contains some things you mentioned so you can check it. I really do not remember exactly what manga contains what, but you can ask me any time you want. It may cantains spoilers.
http://www.mangago.me/home/mangalist/109397/
http://www.mangago.me/recommend-manga/boku_o_warui_ko_ni_shite/ dont know if it has been posted before but I was reading it and a part came (im still reading it so i dont know if it will match your needs) the uke slapped the seme afterwards
oh *embarrassed* it pretty much ended after that
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/rouge_katsura_komachi/ This is definitely the one i guess. By the way i'm also into all the yaoi manga genre that you want. I'm totally in love with yaoi manga with all these types of genre
http://i.hizliresim.com/r6mz21.jpg
http://i.hizliresim.com/LZY5nz.jpg
The author is Yuki Ringo !
But I don't know the title... Σ(  ̄□ ̄||)
thank you I think this is good enough to search for it !