like praying and reading the bible first right after he realises his two friends raped him. i wouldnt touch the bible with my hnds if i knew my church besties raped me everytime i was drunk and when i trusted them. i would 100% not be talking to God for a few years with that…
If he feels empowered through his fate, why would he not turn to it when he's in despair? That's literally what it is for. People pray to find guidance and his God does not judge. You always have someone to talk to in your darkest times if you believe in a benevolent god like that.
It makes total sense for a religious guy in his situation to pray, from such a viewpoint.
(I'm an ex-catholic, do not care about religion myself anymore but this is how the people around me explain their relationship with god.)






ideum is giving me the most insane bdd i think ill have to halt reading this story even tho i love it sm but i cant help but keep comparing myself to him.
it’s a me problem, im sorry ideum sorry ideum pooks