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I really hate the power imbalance between soohan and all of his lovers, and i also think its really disgusting that soohan apologized at the end. He broke up with him. Hes allowed to fucking do that??? Why was everything always soohans fault? He didnt do much wrong yet he was always the one apologizing. And every time he cried, got emotional, or started ranting, taeyul always had something better to say that also ooften invalidated his feelings/made soohan feel bad for being upset even if it was justified. I hate that they got back together, their relationship was so fucking toxic its disgusting. Taeyul did so many bad things that were never even addressed and he didnt even apologize what the fuck. You cant be that fucking controlling in a relationship its disgusting and toxic. And the author really couldnt decide on soohans personality like jesus. Is he a tsundere or a fucking doormat, author? Coming back to the power imbalance, its disgusting me how much stronger/better taeyul is shown to be in many ways compared to soohan. He always wins no matter if its physically or psychologically. Their relationship just really grosses me tf out.