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Its so hard to be a "proper" mom. Even the most stronger woman needs a lots of support after giving birth.. .. I feel so bad for her, she was alone ... and her family treated her as a tool, just for convenience ..
when my son was born I was SO afraid, I couldn't look at him whitout anxiety, I feel desperate. And I didn't love him from the start, the love grew over time, it's now that I know that I can't live whitout him
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To be honest my daughter just turned one and i still catch myself feeling annoyed and hateful towards her. When i had her i felt like i made a mistake but now i love her. When i get those feelings now they only last for a second but they used to keep me u more than her crying. And the feeling of resenting my husband for even leaving me to go to work, i totally understand how she felt when she needed him there to balance out the total lack of feelings for the baby. Ppd is no joke and i had to remind myself, "shes your child, who could possibly love her more than you will."
Is there a novel?