The art is beautiful and I started reading it for the main couple but honestly at this point I'm just invested in Yesing and Shahid (and Kiyan). I want to see how it goes from here, I want to know more about them, there are so many misunderstandings and missed clues. And Kiyan is lovely but I am so rooting for Shahid and Yesing.
So I think I set my expectations too high... I heard a lot of good things about it, I know it's based on a novel and the art is pretty so I was expecting something better honestly Because aside from all the other nonsense, how come I could tell the plot twist from miles away but the skilled and intelligent agent who should be on his guard can't?? Like maybe it makes sense because he believes he knows more than he actually does but it's kinda irritating It's like he goes 'oh, something's fishy' and then ignores it or just ignores weird shit altogether, which makes him seem dense. At least he pointed some of it out in chapter 19 I guess. I'll probably read the novel just to see if it's executed better.
If anyone is wondering the same thing I was: I recently saw a thread on twt that explained that the novel is indeed better with it. Apparently it's not as obvious who Zenya is, e.g. he doesn't look like the rest of his family like he does in the webtoon, so seems like the MC isn't as dumb in the novel.
The main couple's relationship is quite healthy, they try to communicate clearly but it seems so forced... Like the author really wanted to portray that but it makes the dialogues and story feel stilted. And it's just boring. There's barely any conflict in it and it seems like the point of conflict shifts every few chapters, like disjointed moments in the character's lives and not a cohesive story. I mean racing is obviously the main catalyst but there are so many things going on at once yet simultaneously there's nothing happening really. I don't feel the stakes at all. And as someone pointed out the brother's behaviours seem contradictory??
Honestly I'm surprised by how good the reviews in the comments are. Like... it was fine for me but kinda mid. There was no part of it that really stood out to me - the plot, worldbuilding, romance and characterizations were ok but definitely could be improved. The best part was probably the MC, strong-willed and confident. I wish we got more of Jihyuk, he was such a strong presence in the beginning (ngl I'd probably rather have him with the MC but it didn't make me enjoy the main couple less), I found it strange how him and the MC seemed to drift apart. And the ML is fine but also could be way more developed, I didn't really get a good feel of his character or motivations. I also found his possessiveness and desire for sex kind of off-putting (at least the MC also commented on how strangely possessive and childish the ML is and it looked like the ML was gonna get better about it). That seemed like the main theme in the side stories so... uh, that was definitely not my favourite part of the series but the last story was cute at least. I'm also not a fan of the "I live because you live", maybe it could work for me if the romance was better developed but in general I don't like that kind of trope. Maybe I'd give it like a 7/10, it was interesting enough to keep me invested.
I think some parts of the story could do with more polishing but overall I really like the story. There's a good balance between serious/thoughtful and humor. And it's a bit too focused on the main relationship compared to the action/plot for my taste (Gwangwoo pls do /sth/) but I love how the characters are explored, especially Nakwon (he also gets extra points for being a bitchy top with long lashes).
He's a manipulative bastard that's used to doing whatever he wants and not caring about anyone else. He actively seeks out Mokhwa's weaknesses and exploits them for his gain. And I love that even when he does realize his feelings and wants to be on his best behavior, his manipulative nature doesn't just go away. His change of heart doesn't suddenly make him an entirely different good person. He still both consciously and unconsciously tries manipulating Mokhwa. There are times when he thinks he's being reasonable, like doing sth nice but thinking that it should be rewarded or his outbursts. And times when it's deliberate, like trying to make himself more pitiable or his main motivation for wanting to capture Gwangwoo - it's not morality or Mokhwa's feelings but his own selfish desire to keep Mokhwa. It's also kind of endearing to watch him be confused about his own feelings and bad at handling relationships, since before Mokhwa he never cared about someone or regretted his decisions. His whole mood changing just based on their relationship is cute (I might have a weakness for blushy tops). He's egoistic, moody and arrogant and I love him for that honestly.
I also like how the rape scenes were handled. It isn't the prelude to their relationship, they don't become closer because of it, on the contrary it keeps them further apart. There is a clear divide and difference between Nakwon when he intends to rape Mokhwa and when he's seeking intimacy, with the former being driven nearly entirely by his need to harm, humiliate and dominate. It's good to see Nakwon being aware of how he hurt Mokhwa and in some ways even more than Mokhwa himself. He's actually lamenting that Mokhwa should be more concious of how he hurt him not only physically but also mentally. He notices the consequences (like Mokhwa tensing when he touches him), regrets it and he tried punishing himself for it. And the narrative doesn't try to use that as a get-out-of-jail-free card - he's still flawed, still regretting, still working on the relationship. It was also great that in the latest chapters he realized that while the time he was seeking intimacy was different to him, it was still assault since Mokhwa didn't exactly consent.
The misunderstanding trope is getting a bit bothersome but I still like it. Their inability to communicate well is deeply rooted in the differences in their character, social skills and experiences.
Beautifully put
Wow. You’ve fucking nailed the dynamics and characters in one go. This sort of trope is a hard sell especially the r word scenes. I would find it intolerable if it was written worse. Nakwon is such a bitch and unapologetically so (by the author I mean), he’s not a good person and the writer is not afraid of that which is so refreshing in BL where we’re supposed to root for a horrible abusive MC. He’s clearly written to come off terribly, he’s never cool and collected and no one who knows him actually respects him.
I so agree with how he manipulates both consciously and unconsciously and how he uses the things he does and expects a reward. It’s also great to see that he is genuinely regretful of his actions. I especially love how you stated that the rape was not a way for them to get together, I didn’t notice this and you are so so correct. It continuously hangs over them and both MCs are aware of it, Nakwon is even aware of how damaging it is to a person.
Can’t believe this BL is making me write more than 200 words haha. Loved reading your analysis.