Sihyun is a complex character. He grew up with a wrong perception of love, so he doesn’t know how to receive it and how to give it back. He’s an outsider in his own family so he has never had that sense of belonging to anyone and anything so it makes sense that this whole situation is hard for him to grasp. To make it even worse, joohwan never cleared himself of the “married facade” he created so sihyun has always thought he is “the other woman” in this relationship with joohwan. So i guess him receiving the convenience marriage proposal by his dad would make him at least at the same level as joohwan. Like you know when you’re infatuated with someone, you want to have similar things or similar situations with that person, just because.. like for no reason. That’s why he thought doing so would make him desirable to joohwan, and he was mad confused when joohwan ended up angry by the news. Ahhhh this whole shenanigans can be solved if joohwan just straight up confessing that he is a virgin and that ring was a fake one, so that sihyun can correct him and said his first time was with each other during military so that they’ll both know they’re each other’s first love……
im gonna turn joohwan into a piñata I swear
jokes aside we can see that he's also feels insecure when it comes down to sihyun and afraid he stops seeing him and he also thinks he was abandoned back then (I think? need to reread for nth time) so he kept hiding behind that facade but ended up complicating stuff
the main issue for them is really is complete lack of communication but I believe that's the point of the manwha! they're both really suck at it! they care about each other so much they do everything they can to keep at least what they have
kudos to joohwan for being the one who wanted to progress further and actually initiated it so I'll probably won't turn him into a piñata after all
Even though im unemployed, i still have to be up by 4am every day and its already 12am right now and i cant seem to stop reading! Im only on chap 11 though, still happy still fluttering with lovebug and i dont want to think about the angst foreshadow or wtv. Let me stay in this bubble for longer (▰˘◡˘▰)






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