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A Buddhist monk who feels more at ease with monsters than with humans is travelling through a haunte...

Five years after high school graduation, Chiwoo and Kyujin are all grown up and still going steady. ...

Every night at 10, Dong-gyun locks himself up in his room, grabs a box of tissues, and watches a liv...

From living under the same roof to then being classmates?! Ever since his parents passed away, Haebo...

Pairing: Tendou x Wakatoshi...

Fuck I'm getting soft. But we must remember that Jooin is not in Yahwi's head like we just were. None of this fondness has been portrayed to Jooin. Cain has been such a good candidate for Jooin while Yahwi's actions have not shown any of the fondness we know he is feeling. I'm still team Cain unless by some miracle Yahwi has a huge growth in character and learns how to share his feelings through sincere words and actions.

manz got drugged, almost rapped, and watched suha leave with the period blood haired bitch (i know he comes back and apologized but still) so of course he’s traumatized asf and his family is complete trash that still treats him like absolute shit to this day so him being this way isn’t completely irrational, he hasn’t done anything crazy thus far in the raws so we can’t be assuming this relationship is doomed and toxic just yet. but who knows, maybe i’m being too optimistic

Matthew needs to chill the fuck out. Hayoung needs space (especially if he is pregnant...)

This is so toxic. I love it. Yeah they're a shit couple. Yeah Taesung is a piece of shit. But at least he's true to his gangster character. I love this, The more toxic it gets the more I want to read on. I wouldn't ever want to be in a relationship like this, but as a work of fiction, I'm all for it. Also, I fucking love that Sooyoung discovered that he has a choke kink. Can't wait to see more

Court room scene reminded me of Uenoyama's gay panic

This is my favorite chapter. I love it when the seme is cherished as well

If you're involved with someone for a long time and give more of yourself than the other person does, then you will definitely grow to resent that person. The love is still there, but it is tainted and twisted by the resentment resulting from your unrequited feelings

EXTREME EYE ROLL

Ok that last part was super cute, but I want to know what the heck is going on! What is Luan's relationship with Yul's hyung? Why can't Yul's hyung touch Yul, like what happened to make him so weirdly obsessed with Yul? It's killing me to wait every week for story development to be met only with smut :'/

It will never ever make sense to me ppl's fixation of painting Joowon as "the bad guy" in Joohae's relationship, when its not what LOH depicts AT ALL. "In hindsight, everyone is a perpetrator and victim” —Joowon, Chapter 2 // This quote right here has to be the most DEFINING quote for these two, and I wanted to write an essay about it (yes it's a literal ESSAY IM SORRY).

When the story starts, we see Haesoo feeling hurt, claiming Joowon doesnt care about them and projecting him in a bad light + we see JW's attitude & his *possessiveness*... But we quickly learn that Joowon acts that way because Haesoo manipulates his emotions. Haesoo says its the "relationship I manipulated because I craved an obsessive love”, and he "builds walls, so Joowon can tear them down”. Meanwhile Joowon is also in the wrong as he's immature, impulsive & acts on ALL of Haesoo’s provocations. They inflict these actions on each other because they're BOTH insecure about their r/s. Because defining a relationship usually gives parties a sense of security... so what happens in an UNDEFINED dynamic where they can’t officially be "lovers", and can’t voice their true feelings either?? Well: there's no security in the relationship. That’s why Joowon and Haesoo keep up this push/pull tactic. It's the only way they can affirm they're “each other’s”. The fact that Joowon only acts within the confines of their jealousy games/Haesoo's manipulation, is proven further when they break up: HS narrates, "the game is over", and we see Joowon actually give Haesoo SPACE cause he knows his boundaries and where the lines are drawn. He still clearly loves Haesoo though, so he tries to protect him in the background (eg: when leo told him shady stuff abt taku, the bullying scandal, etc.)

Now that leads to the question: why did Joohae stay in this sort of hurtful open relationship for so long, if they love each other?? Well in short: its cause of their PARENTS.
Haesoo’s reason for not wanting to define the relationship: he fears that he’ll lose his mom if he makes things serious with Joowon. His mom spent ages guilt tripping him for her divorce + tells him she can’t love him if he loves Joowon. The guilt Haesoo feels isn't JUST towards his mom though. It's towards Joowon too. Haesoo constantly projects Joowon's life as "perfect" and feels so inferior at the success of JW's career. So he thinks he's the "only one suffering" (hence painting JW as the asshole who doesnt care). He also seems to see himself as a hindrance to Joowon & thinks JW will be much happier with a marriage, kids, etc. And Haesoo's thoughts AREN'T really Joowon's fault. Joowon never said he wanted a "normal" life, or tried to make HS feel like a burden. He always called Haesoo, told him he missed him, tried to spend all his free time w him despite his busy work. So I think most of HS's insecurities stem from his mom acting like he doesnt deserve her love, and his mom making him think he's a burden ("Am I that much of a hindrance to you?"). It clearly left Haesoo emotionally broken.

Now... Joowon's reason for not wanting to define the relationship: It started, after Joohae were caught as teens and JW was hit with a harsh reality. He got slapped by HS's mom and Haesoo even said: "I’m scared of my feelings for you”. It made Joowon think Haesoo can’t handle their relationship getting serious. JW felt driven into a corner, so he said, “Don’t fall for me and I won’t fall for you”. This is Joowon's foolish attempt to PROTECT them from being separated. He wanted to frame their r/s as “nothing serious, we’re just fooling around” to make things less complicated. He was also trying to protect Haesoo, knowing he can’t make Haesoo lose his mom. Joowon's dad deeply affects his actions too. After the highschool fight issue, he tells Joowon that Haesoo is gonna abandon him, and he shouldn’t start things he'll fail. Joowon takes this to heart after the divorce, where the mom makes Haesoo leave without even telling Joowon. Ofc he now thinks he’s been “abandoned” cause things got too serious for Haesoo, and that everything his father said was TRUE. His father gaslights him for years that Haesoo will abandon him. So Joowon literally thinks the ONLY WAY Haesoo will be with him, is through this ambiguous relationship.

Now. Consider both perspectives: Joowon never insisted that he wanted an official r/s because he thinks Haesoo will drop him otherwise. And Haesoo never insisted on what he truly wanted either (an official r/s! the same thing! WOW~ lmao) because the guilt he felt towards his mother overtook all of that. They willingly chose this, and the ambiguity of their relationship hurts BOTH of them, but they endure it cause they love each other and they wanted to stay together no matter what. Haesoo confirms it when he says "It’s painful because we know we can’t have it, that’s why we kept it ambiguous for 10 years”. Haesoo kept going back to Joowon for years. That’s what made Joowon arrogant and had him thinking, “Haesoo is fine with this. Haesoo can’t live without me. I knew he'd never leave me if we keep our relationship ambiguous”, and Haesoo never communicated otherwise. The remarriage suddenly made all of HS's fears abt losing his mom too real: hence why he walks out first, leaving Joowon to rethink EVERYTHING about what Haesoo truly wanted.

So in the end: who's the victim, and who's the perpetrator? You could say both... or NEITHER. At the end of the day, Haesoo and Joowon were just 2 people who loved each other since they were teenagers, but could never communicate it for their own reasons. They BOTH willingly got into these roles of an ambiguous relationship and kept up unhealthy cycles of jealousy. And they did it to be with e/o without having to be honest about their feelings, or face the consequences of their relationship. Through distance and time spent apart: they realized they feared never telling eo their true feelings FAR MORE, than whatever they could lose as a result of their love. That’s why in the end Haesoo asks Joowon if he regrets their relationship due to Joowon’s career and dad and everything... Haesoo was always worried about that: that if they chose each other, they'd come to resent each other for their losses (he says it in their breakup). But Joowon being the ride or die man he is, says he regrets nothing & he doesnt care about that as long as he’s with Haesoo. These two possibly have the most conflicting relationship I’ve read in a while— but they way they make realizations, develop, and change their mindset all so realistically to reach the conclusion they do is quite beautiful to me <33

I started reading this because I thought it was funny to see the size difference but I stayed because of the communication and compromise

Ugh it's good that they're finally talking but I feel like Yahwi is just trying to appease Jooin by saying that he likes him but go back to the same old shit of not being honest when there's a problem. I don't care who Jooin picks, but if it is Yahwi then they better continue with this amount of conversation.

I laughed so hard when Minhyuk yoinked the knife out of Sooyoung's back like,,, the kid just had his muscles detached from his scapula and you're going to take out the knife that's holding some of the blood from coming out?? Hilarious. Can't wait to see how they manga their way out of Sooyoung dying from blood loss lol

Honestly this has become plotless smut. All of the couples are ignoring their problems, having sex, and moving on without ever solving anything. If you're here for a story and not just smut, sorry to say this, but maybe you should look elsewhere

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It's about Quiet/Cold Uke who has:
➳Strict Maner
➳Expressionless
➳Shy
➳Anti-Social
➳Introvert
➳Aloner/Socially Awkward/Gloomy type
➳Mature side
➳Mysterious Aura
➳Tsundere type (slightly)

Page information:
➠Tsundere Type (pg 1-3)
➠Older + Mature type (pg 3-5)
➠Anti social + Introvert type (pg 5-8)
➠A loner + shy type (pg 8-11)
➠Mysterious + Expressionless type (pg 12-14)
➠Only quiet + cold type or with another specific attitude (pg 14-19)

■ some of them including the raws