idk what to make this's Things

i want to be skinny. not just thin i want to be bone thin. i want the outlines of the bones to be seen , i want my ribs to be more seen, i was a thigh gap, i want to be pretty. so many people look pretty bigger, but why do i look gross. I'm disgusting i yern for my dream body but i go and eat 100's of calories a day. I know i will always be like this. And by "like this" i mean gross and unlovable.(๑•ㅂ•)و✧