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I mean, really... How will she know she's "in love"?
Right now, she'd fool me!
She cares about his well being and his wishes, she feels passion for him in every way... That seems to fit the classical romantic feeling.
Why does her still loving her past (dead) lover mean she doesn't love Terriod? Does that mean widows can't ever fall in love again? Cause that's basically what she is... In a twisted way.
The same face issue I kinda get... But, I think, he's not just a face to you!
In the end...
I'm confused. I, myself, struggled with the idea of romance. Honestly I don't know what she's supposed to feel to call it love and she also seems to have no clue either.
But it feels like she's not even trying to "solve" her guilt because she probably thinks trying to "solve" it would be selfish of her.
Another question: Does one feel the exact same every time they fall in love?
I like Astina. I like Terriod.
People who shut off the heart to be logical are actually being unreasonable. Feelings are a factor in life that we know we can't control but should navigate.
Also, you can love more than once. The healthy heart isn't so small it'll only allow one love per life.
To finish this off: too bad therapy isn't a thing yet... You need the guidance.